Car journey to South Africa from Harare Zimbabwe April 1993 by Michelle Clarke

14th April 1993

Edited to exclude names of people and detail my views of Zimbabwe while living there in the 1990’s.


The news still appears dismal in the building industry in England. No light yet at the end of the tunnel.  Harare is the beneficiary of much aid from the IMF and World Bank which means that there are large developments being built here at present.  Joe’s (my husband, now divorced) present contract is a 17 storey office block for the Post Office Savings Bank, it is due for completion in August.  Then the plan is that he will move to Eastgate which is to be the largest office/retail development in Zimbabwe.  It is a joint venture between Costain and John Sisk Pvt. Ltd.  It started about 2 months ago but initial management is being dealt with by the Costain part of the venture.  However, it is hard to see that the momentum in the building industry here will be sustained. Funds from the IMF and World Bank will not last forever and will have to be repaid so we envisage that at the end of two years, work will have substantially dried up here so it will be back to the UK in time for the next boom, hopefully.

……….  Maybe you are like me and just don’t like the concept of chasing a little white ball around for some three to four hours. I have accompanied Joe on two occasions i.e. I have walked around the golf course with him, it not being the done thing to share the same set of golf clubs.  Golf in Harare is very different.  Joe plays nearly every week at the Harare South Golf Club.  Each player takes along a caddy boy who is supposed to be the workhorse and carry the clubs and whatsmore he follows the shots. The aim is that no balls are lost.  For the princely sum of $8 (80p) these boys queue and wait from the early hours of the morning in the hope that they will be selected as caddy boys.  The caddy master co-ordinates who goes with whom.  Joe plays with Simon Hawgood, a QS who works with him.  They play the first 9 holes and retire for a large breakfast circa 9.00 a.m. and then they play the next 9.   I don’t know how Joe will adapt to playing back in the
home country when he has noone to watch where the balls fall.

Easter is now over and Joe and I have made it back from South Africa.  It was mammoth venture, traveling some 750 miles (or 12 hours traveling time) each way to Johannesburg.  All went well except for our car cut out in “No Man’s Land” i.e. between the Zimbabwean and South African border. It was quite scary, particularly as it was just before Beit Bridge which is patrolled by SA soldiers (only young lads with machine guns).  The signs all
said “No Stopping” and there we were in a car which refused to move in any direction.  We waited for 20 minutes, the engine cooled down and we set off again.  The journey was arduous for the car which when the petrol tank became too hot began to splutter curtailing our speed to an average of only 80 km per hour.  Cars are scarce to come by here and as yet we have not got our proper company car so hence we had to rely on a rather old Nissan which just was not suitable for such a journey.

It was great to get to see SA.  Joe and I had wanted to go to SA for our honeymoon, some 10 years ago and here we are 10 years later living in Africa with the bonus of being able to drive there.  It is a very different country to Zimbabwe which is distinctly third world.  Johannesburg is an enormous city based very much along American lines rather than English. There are many restaurants, large shopping malls, large industrial areas containing the usual corporate leaders of industry.  It was not at all as I had imagined.
In ways it is similar to New York rather than London.  Central Jo’burg is really a “no go” area for whites now.  The violence is a major problem and many sectarian shootings occur daily.  All South Africans have access to arms and it is not uncommon for a car containing white people to be stopped by another holding black people who proceed to shoot them with their AK47 rifles.  Whilst driving, particularly at night, it is so important to remain alert, and it is accepted practice for people to drive through red traffic lights having checked that the coast is clear.  Apparently, according to Russell (our host), the violence was bad over the last few weeks. The subversives had targeted restaurants frequented by the whites and would just machine gun all in sight.

Chris Hani, leader of the Communist party and a shining light in SA terms was shot dead over the weekend by a white Polish man claiming to represent an extreme conservative party.  Nelson Mandela called for calm but people feel uncertain as to what will happen in response to this killing.  In Capetown, 2 white men were burned to death in their cars by angry blacks.  Most expect considerable reprisals to follow around the time of the funeral. For all that it has to offer i.e. financially and in consumer terms, SA is a place
where I would not choose to live.  The uncertainty and volatility of the political environment is frightening.  The blacks look on the whites as capitalists, they sport shirts with slogans “I’ll be the boss in the New SA”, i.e. a SA without whites.  You notice the difference between those in SA and Zimbabwe.  In Zim, they are considerably more friendly and accepting of their white compatriots but then there are only 200,000 white people remaining in a population of 11 million and although these 200,000 hold a considerable portion of the wealth, it is gradually being divested to their black counterparts via. governmental policies.  In SA, there is no doubt but that whites still continue to suppress the blacks but the ANC is gaining support and no doubt it will follow along Zimbabwean lines.  It must be an absolute nightmare for those white people who live there with no option to leave. Russell is lucky, he has an Irish passport.  For people in these countries having access to an Irish passport by virtue of having one Irish grandparent is worth so much.

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Publication Family History Galway Vindicator 1866. The O’Donnellan ffrench Blake-Forsters by Michelle Clarke

Debrett’s Peerage. No.  But it is the family history of my grandmother’s family and a lineage detailed in 1866 in the Galway Vindicator and a book published by my grandmother’s uncle Charles ffrench Blake-Forster, High Sheriff Galway but who died aged 24.

There is a narrative, thankfully it is familial and the experience of listening and being steeped in a culture of the remnants of another time. It is about the people who came to Ireland to take the land and it is about the people who said we want our land back, and they achieved this i.e apart from the 6 counties in North of Ireland.

My grandmother, Marcella Blake-Forster, Ballykeale Hs, Kilfenora, Co Clare, among the last of the Blake-Forster line, met my Grandfather as he sought election for Sinn Fein in 1919. Michael Comyn KC lost that election to Eamonn de Valera. He married my grandmother, Marcella Blake-Forster and hence I can include myself  as part of this family tree, produced for publication in 1866.

Aged 7, it was a journey away from home in Co Meath to a place in the west of Ireland that captivated so much of my early life. My grand-aunt Fanny (nee Frances Blake-Forster), elder sister of Marcella Blake-Forster,  became my friend, my ally, my tutor, my storyteller. She taught me how to care for an older person not based on monetary cost but on the intrinsic values that can be gained from a relationship between an older person and a child. Sadly she died when I was 12 and it caused me great distress but it was only years later, when I was involved in a horse riding accident in Zimbabwe (formerly Rhodesia) resulting in a serious brain injury that impacted on memory capacity that those memories of that precious time formed the path to rehabilitation.

To explain about traumatic brain injury and how it affects me is as follows and is by way of explanation.

(What I basically have is short term memory deficits so it is difficult to form long term memories based on day to day experiences. 20 years on, I have a methodology and it seems to work. I have support from KT and the computer, internet, social media have made it possible to engage. An earlier family member named Emily ffrench Blake-Forster detailed in this Sept was not so fortunate when she too fell off the horse in Co Clare. She died. I lived and I engaged. I must share this now but I must also share how it is that I can do so.

It goes back to the 1970’s. The hall nearest the porch at Porte Hs, Ruan, Co Clare, was full of relics of old decency, a little dusty, a little under valued but they existed. There was a framed document that filled the frame. It was the Sept. My mother, a niece of Aunt Fanny, decided she was going to get herself a copy and she did but in those days, the photo-copiers were few and the photo-copying was basic. I recall sheets of paper all stuck together and eventually most probably a decade on, we had our own three copies of the family Sept in frames. Fearful of the detail fading in the 1980’s I laboriously typed up a version in hard copy and again did this when I had access to a computer 10 years later. So here it is: I hope it opens up dialogue. In my childhood, family particularly Aunt Fanny, Eileen and my mother Rose, would chat for hours about family history. They did not rely on the Sept because for them it was about people they remembered or had heard stories about, the houses, the Castles, the Mansions, many of which are now derelict, the servants, the landed estates, the inter-connectedness through marriage, the wars, the Aran Islands. It is this that traumatic brain injury has re-acquainted me with and provides me with a sense of identity that is forfeited when you are asked to live in Groundhog Day. It is this that gives me character and connectedness with my partner as his interests are the west of Ireland, history and politics.

My cousin Eileen had a most amazing memory but she also had a book written by Charles ffrench Blake-Forster. This man died at the age of 23 but he had written prolifically and was High Sheriff of Galway. The book along with a number of articles written by him show the conflict of identities, neither British nor Irish but an ardent desire to establish a historical account of origin. Few copies of this book exist and many other writings are lost. However, The Sept includes Charles ffrench Blake-Forster, Forster Street House, Galway.

The Irish Chieftains or A Struggle for the Crown (with numerous notes and copious Appendix) Author of a historical and biographical memoir of Major-General Don Hugh Ballyfarg O’Donnell; a historical sketch of the DE Berminghams,Lords of Athenry; The Annals of Athenry, or YE Cities of the Barons; the Annals of Corcomroe; Lemanagh Castle or a legend of the Wild Horse; the Annals of Kilfenora; the Annals of Knockmoy Abbey; and a historical essay entitled What are the Arms of Galway etc etc

Published by McGlashan & Gill, 50 Upper Sackville Street, Dublin London: Whittaker and Co, Simpkin, Marshall and Co Edinburgh: John Mentes and Co 1872  (Copyright and right of translation reserved by author)

Charles ffrench Blake-Forster makes the dedication

To the descendants of those dis-interested patriots who fought at the Boyne, Aughrim, Athlone, Galway and Limerick and on the continent in the service of their religion and country. This Record of The Valour and Patriotism of their Heroic Ancestors is inscribed by The Author

Google and Internet Archives have made this history available to what are known as “Digital Natives”.

Google outlines works of Charles ffrench Blake-Forster but this link is entire copy of the book he published in 1872. Full text of “The Irish chieftains; or, A struggle for the crown”

The Irish chieftains; or, A struggle for the crown (1872) fullscreen Author: Charles ffrench Blake – Forster Publisher: Year: 1872 Pages: 759 Possible copyright status: NOT_IN_COPYRIGHT Language: English Digitizing sponsor: Google Book from the collections of: Oxford University Collection: europeanlibraries

Description Book digitized by Google from the library of Oxford University and uploaded to the Internet Archive by user tpb.

Back to descendant, a connection with the past! Menlough Castle, now in ruins features in the Sept. It links through time in an interesting way. Tragedy beset the Blakes but nothing to equal the hardship of those who were forced to emigrate. *Menlo was the name chosen for the Facebook head office in America because emigrants to the US had fond memories and used the name. “Galway village’s connection with Menlo Park in Silicon Valley http://www.siliconrepublic.com/business/item/35014-galway-village-s-connection

Galway City and the city of Menlo Park, California, have signed a friendship agreement in recognition of the fact that two Irish emigrants in the 19th century called Dennis Oliver and his brother-in-law DC McGlynn from the village of Menlo (Menlough, or ‘small lake’ as Gaeilge) in Galway bought a 1,700-acre tract of land in the 1850s, 48 kilometres (30 miles) south of San Francisco.


Genealogical Sketch of the Blake-Forster Sept from

“The Galway Vindicator, October 20, 1866

Anacher, Great Forester of Flanders, died in 837, and was succeeded by his son. Baldwin I, of Flanders, “The Forester”, called “Iron-arm”, on account of his great strength, some say on account of his being constantly in armour. He married Princess Judith, daughter of Charles the “Bald”, King of Acquitania and Neustria, and in other words, the greater part of modern France. He built castles at Bruges and Ghent to defend the country against the Normans. Baldwin died at Arras in 877, and was succeeded by his son. Baldwin II, of Flanders, “The Forester”, who married the Princess Alfrith, daughter of Alfred the Great, King of England. He made war against Eudes, Count of Paris who usurped the French Crown and defeated him. Baldwin died in 919, and was succeeded by his son. Arnulph I of Flanders, “The Forester”, who was succeeded in 988 by his son. Baldwin III of Flanders, “The Forester”, called “the handsome beard”, who married the daughter of the Count of Luxemburg. He was a great warrior, and defended his country against the united forces of the Emperor Henry, King Robert of France and the Duke of Normandy. He died in 1034, and was succeeded by his son. Baldwin IV, “The Forester”, called “Le Debonnaire”, who married the Princess Adela, daughter of Robert King of France, by whom he had issue:- Baldwin V, “The Forester”.

Robert Forester, surnamed the “Friesland”, from his having conquered the principality of Friesland Mathilda, Wife of William I, surnamed Conqueror of England Sir Richard Forester, called in these days by his Latinised name of Forestarious.

The Sir Richard Forester and his father, Baldwin IV, passed over to England with his brother-in-law, William the Conqueror, and received the honour of knighthood after the decisive Battle of Hastings, being then in his 16th year, from whom sprung the Forsters of Etherston and Bamborough Castles, in Northumberland, and the Blake-Forsters of Ashfield and Knockmoy Abbey, County of Galway, and Inchovey Castle, County of Clare. The Forster family were principal Chieftains in Northumberland, and allied by marriage with all the eminent Northern families – the Fetherstons, Grays of Chillingham, the Fenwicks, the Lord Barons of Ogle, the Barons of Wharton, the Barons of Hilton, the Mitfords, Barons of Mitford from whom the Earl of Redesdale, the Collingwoods of Dislington, the Radcliffs, Earls of Derwentwater, the Haggerstons of Haggerston, the Russells from whom the Duke of Bedford, and others too numerous to mention. Many of the family were distinguished for their deeds of chivalry and warlike actions, and at the siege of Acre, A.D. 1191, a party of Saracens having sallied forth, and surrounded King Richard, he would have been overpowered and made prisoner, had not Sir John Forster, who seeing from a distance the danger in which the King was placed, rushed forward with couched lance, followed by his retainers, shouting “To the rescue a Forster! a Forster!”. The King then cut down the Saracen leader, whose troops retreated before Sir John, who for his brave and timely assistance, received from King Richard a grant to bear a chevron vert on his shield. There is a monument to his memory in Bamborough Abbey bearing his effigy in full armour. In a song composed on the battle of Otterbourne, in 1388, the Forsters are placed first in the Clans mentioned,

“The Forster, Fenwick, Collingwood, “The Heron of renown “High in the ranks of Lord Percy “The war axe hewed down “The Percies in that vengeful fight “Both, both were prisoners ta’n; “But for the Douglas’ dead body, “Were yielded up again”.

The Forsters of Bamborough Castle, were Lords of Blanchland, in Northumberland, and for several generations, they were Knights Bannerets, Lords Warden of Middle Marches, High Sheriffs of Northumberland, and hereditary governors of Bamborough Castle, from the reign of James I, to that of George I. The Forsters of Etherston – The head of this House, from whom those of Bamborough descended, won their honours on the field of battle, and their descendants of Hunsdon, by their profound skill in legal knowledge. But now to resume the thread of our pedigree, Sir Richard Forster, the son of Baldwin IV, was succeeded by his son. Sir Hugo Forestarious, or Forester, who marched against Magnus, King of Norway, when he invaded England, A.D. 1101. In the battle that ensued King Magnus was slain and his troops routed.

Sir Hugo died in 1121 leaving issue i) Sir Reginald ii) Sir Hugo, a person of great eminence, during the reign of King Stephen, who appointed him Chief Lord of the Royal Forests of England. In 1152 he witnessed a deed in Northumberland in which he is styled Forestarious (the latinised name of Forster). He bore for arms on a shield argent, three bugles, or, stringed gules. Sir Reginald, the eldest son was knighted by King Stephen for his valiant conduct at the battle of Standard fought August 22nd 1138. He died 1156 leaving a son and successor. Sir William Forster. He took an active part in suppressing two formidable insurrections that broke out in Wales, A.D., 1163, and again in 1165. In 1166, he took his departure for France. The people of Brittany having rebelled against their Duke Conan, but the insurrection was quelled by Henry II, with his usual promptitude, and afforded him a pretext for taking the government into his own hands. Sir William Forster was then about returning to England: but Henry becoming involved in hostilities with Louis VII, he remained and took part in all the engagements, but the war terminating by the peace concluded at Montmirail, 6th January 1169, he returned to England and died in 1176.

He was succeeded by his son. Sir John Forster, who accompanied Richard I to Palestine, where he received the honour of Knighthood for his valour. He was one of those who compelled John to sign Magna Carta in 1215. He died 1220 and was succeeded by his son*. Sir Ranulph Forster, who accompanied Prince Richard (brother of Henry III) to France in 1225, the Prince being sent by the King for the purpose of regaining his French provinces. After a year’s fighting, an armistice was agreed on, but the French King dying before its expiration, the hostilities were again renewed, but ended in very little result. Sir Ranulph died in 1256 and was succeeded by his son.

Sir Alfred Forster, who having assisted Prince Edward, after his escape from the rebel barons, in raising an army for the purpose of releasing his father, Henry III, and Prince Richard from their confinement, was appointed one of the King’s Officers. Having collected his army, Prince Edward fought the battle of Eversham, 4th August, 1265, in which he was victorious. Sir Alfred received the honour of Knighthood on the battle field. He died in 1284, and was succeeded by his son.

Sir Reginald Forster, who fought at Bannockburne in 1314, and died in 1328. He was succeeded by his son. Sir Richard Forster, who fought at Crecy, August 25th 1346; at Poictiers, September 19th, 1356; he was knighted for his valour and died in 1371, leaving a son. Sir William Forster, who took an active part against the French for Henry V, by whom he was knighted. He died in 1426 and was succeeded by his son.

Sir Thomas Forster, of Etherston Castle, Knight, who was born in 1397; married Joan Elmeden, co-heiress to the Earldom of Angus, which is now in abeyance. He was succeeded by his son. Sir Thomas Forster, Knight of Etherston Castle, who married the daughter of Fetherston-Haugh, of Stanhope Hall Durham, Chief of the Fetherston Clan. He had issue: i) Sir Thomas Forster ii) Sir Roger Forster (of whom hereafter). Sir Thomas Forster, Knight of Etherston, who married the daughter of the Lord Baron Hilton, of Hilton Castle, Durham and had issue:- i) Sir Thomas Forster ii) Patrick Forster iii) Roger Forster iv) Reginald Forster. Sir Thomas Forster, of Etherston, Knight, who was High Sheriff of Northumberland in 1564, and also in 1572. He married Dorothy, daughter of Ralph, Lord Ogle, of Ogle, and Baron of Bothal, of Bothal Castle, by Mary his wife, daughter of Sir William Gascoigne, of Gawthorp, Knight in Yorkshire. He had issue: i) Sir Thomas Forster ii) Sir John Forster, Knight of Bamborough Castle (of whom hereafter) iii) Reginald (who left an only daughter) iv) Rowland (who left an only daughter) v) Robert, ancestor to the family of Forster of York (Baronets) vi) Elizabeth vii) Agnes viii) Dorothy (who married Sir Henry Neville, son of Sir John Neville, of Levaney).

Sir Thomas Forster, Knight of Etherston, married Florina, daughter of Thomas, Lord Wharton, of Wharton, and had issue:- i) Thomas Forster ii) Cuthbert Forster, who married Elizabeth Bradford, daughter of Thomas Bradford, and had issue:- i) Sir Matthew Forster, knighted April 24th, 1617 ii) Thomas Forster of Brunton Esq., who married firstly Margaret, daughter of Richard Forster, of Tugwell Hall, Esq., and had issue one daughter, Elizabeth. He married secondly Elizabeth, daughter of William Carree of Ford, Esq., and had issue:- i) Ephraym Forster ii) John Forster iii) Reginald Forster.

Thomas Forster, of Etherston, Esq., eldest son of Sir Thomas Forster, of Etherston, and his wife, Florina, daughter of Lord Wharton, married Isabella, daughter of Thomas Brewster, of Lucker and had issue:- i) Matthew Forster ii) Thomas Forster iii) John Forster iv) William Forster Matthew Forster, of Etherston, Esq., was High Sheriff of Northumberland in the 18th year of the reign of James I. He married Kathrina, daughter of Radi Gray of Chillingham, ancestor of the Earl of Tankerville and had issue:- i) Thomas Forster ii) Matthew Forster iii) Jane Forster iv) Maria Forster v) Dorothy Forster.  Thomas Forster, of Etherston, Esq., High Sheriff of Northumberland, in the reign of Charles I. He married Frances, daughter of Sir William Forster, of Bamborough Castle, and was succeeded by his son. Thomas Forster, of Etherston, Esq., High Sheriff of Northumberland 1703 who married Isabella, daughter of William Orde, of Sandy Bank Esq., MP, for Durham and left issue:- i) Thomas Forster of Etherston, Esq., who died on March 31st, 1763, in the 20th year of his age, without issue:- ii) Isabella Forster, heiress to her brother, who married John Widdrington, of Haxley, Northumberland, Esq. ON HER DEATH THIS LINE OF THE HOUSE OF ETHERSTON BECAME EXTINCT.

Now to return to Sir John Forster, Knight Banneret, Lord Warden of the Middle Marches, Lord of Blanchland, and Governor of Bamborough Castle, second son of Sir Thomas Forster, of Etherston, Knight, and his wife, Dorothy, daughter of Ralph, Lord Ogle of Ogle. Sir John Forster married Jane, daughter of Sir Cuthbert Radcliffe, who was High Sheriff of Northumberland in 1528, by his wife Margaret, daughter of Henry, Lord Clifford. In 1575, Sir John Forster was a distinguished military leader in the feuds between the English and Scottish borderers, and after the battle of Musselburgh, was appointed Governor of Bamborough Castle. He was Lord Warden of the Middle Marches in 1561, and is said on his tomb in Bamborough Abbey, to have held that office for 37 years. Sir John had issue:- i) Sir Nicholas Forster ii) Juliana Forster who married Sir Francis Russell, Lord Warden of the East Marches of Scotland, created Lord Russell, son of Francis, Earl of Bedford, who was sworn of the Privy Council in the reign of Elizabeth. Francis, Lord Russell, by his wife Juliana, was father of Edward, Earl of Bedford and Baron Russell, who married Lucy, daughter of John Lord Harrington. iii) Mary Forster, who married Henry Staypelton, eldest son of Sir Robert Staypelton, of Wighill, in Yorkshire. iv) Grace, who married Sir William Fenwick, High Sheriff of Northumberland in the 20th and 31st years of the reign of Queen Elizabeth and was mother of Sir John Fenwick, Bart., MP for the County of Northumberland, in the 17th year of James I.

Sir Nicholas Forster, Lord Blanchland, Knight Banneret, Governor of Bamborough Castle, and Lord of the Manor, was High Sheriff of Northumberland in the 44th year of the reign of Elizabeth. He married Jane, daughter and heiress of Sir Anthony Radcliffe, Knight. He died on July 22nd, 1613, and was succeeded by his son. Sir Claud Forster, of Bamborough, Knight Banneret, created baronet by James I, on July 7th 1619. He was High Sheriff of Northumberland, in the 10th year of the reign of that sovereign. He married the daughter of Sir William Fenwick, Baronet, M.P., for Northumberland, 6th and 8th Charles II. Sir Claud died in 1623, and was buried in Bamborough Abbey. He had issue:- i) Sir William Forster ii) Thomas Forster (of whom presently). Sir William Forster married Dorothy, daughter of Sir William Selby, of Twizel Castle, Baronet by his wife Eleanor, daughter of Ferdinando, Lord Fairfax of Denton, in Yorkshire. Sir William was returned in the list of intended Knights of the Royal Oak, in the time of Charles II. He had issue:- i) William Forster, born July, 1666. MP for Northumberland, in 1688, 1691 and 1699. Died without issue in 1700. ii) John Forster, MP for Northumberland. iii) Ferdinando, died 1701, without issue iv) Nicholas, died young v) Eleanor, died young vi) Dorothy died young vii) Frances, who married Thomas Forster, Esq., of Etherston, her cousin viii) Mary, who died unmarried ix) Dorothy, who married July 1700, the Right Hon. The Lord Crewe, Bishop of Durham, and Lord Baron of Stene, in the County of Northampton. She died 1715 without issue.

Sir William Forster’s issue having all died young, the representation of his family devolved on his brother. Thomas Forster Esq., of Bamborough, M.P. for Northumberland, in 1707, who was succeeded by his son:- General Thomas Forster, who was MP for Northumberland, in 1709, 1711, 1714, 1715; but was expelled for having joined the Earls of Marr and Derwentwater in their rebellion, raised for the purpose of establishing the Stewarts on the Throne, was arrested and sent to Newgate, from whence he escaped and died in exile at Boulogne Sur-Mer in 1738. On his death this branch of the ancient family of Bamborough and Blanchland became extinct. Bamborough Castle being forfeited by General Forster on account of this being head of the rebellion was purchased by his Uncle-in-law, Lord Crewe, Lord Bishop of Durham, he being allowed by Government to purchase it for a small sum, in order to prevent the right heirs from questioning the title as General Forster was never tried and convicted. Now, to turn to Sir Roger Forster, the second son of Sir Thomas Forster, of Etherston, and his wife, the daughter of Fetherston-Haugh, Chief of the Fetherston Clan. He settled in Hunsdon, in Herts, and married the daughter of Hussey, who was beheaded for the insurrection of 1537 against Henry VIII. The Hussey family were descended from Hubert Hussey, a Norman noble who married the Countess Helen, daughter of Richard V., Duke of Normandy and had issue:- i) John Forster, whose grandson, Roger had issue only two daughters ii) Thomas Forster, Esq., Gentleman, Usher Queen Mary of England. Thomas Forster, Esq., married Margaret Browning, daughter of Browning of Chelmsford, Essex, Esq., and had issue:- i) Sir Thomas Forster, born 1549 ii) Robert Forster iii) Richard Forster.

Sir Thomas Forster, Lord Chief Justice of the King’s Bench was knighted by King James I at Whitehall Palace, 7th February 1604. He died May, 1612, and was interred in the chancel of Hunsdon Church. He married Susanna, daughter of Thomas Forster, Esq., of Iden, in Sussex and had issue:- i) Thomas Forster, Esq., his heir ii) Sir Robert Forster, Sir Robert Forster, of Battle, in Sussex, Knight, Lord Chief Justice of the Common Pleas, and afterwards of the King’s Bench. He afterwards settled at Egham, in Surrey; he was knighted by King Charles I on 30th January, 1639. He married first Elizabeth, daughter of Sir Edward Buxton, Knight of Eastbourne, in Sussex and had issue:- i) Thomas, who died young ii) Thomas Forster, Captain in King Charles’ Army. Married Adis, daughter of William Manlesford, in Suffolk, Esq, and and had issue:- i) Robert Forster, who died unmarried ii) Thomas Forster, Esq., of Egham, in Surrey iii) Charles Forster, Esq. iv) Francis Forster v) A daughter vi). A daughter Sir Robert Forster married secondly, Anne, daughter of John Sackville, Esq., of Seloscome, in Sussex, by whom he had issue:- i) Captain Robert Forster, living in 1632, and two daughters.

Now to return to Thomas Forster, Esq., of Hunsdon, the eldest son of Sir Thomas Forster, Knight. He married Anne, daughter of William Baskerville, of Wansbory, in Wiltshire, whose other daughter was married to the Honourable Thomas Petre, son of Lord Petre. William Baskerville was descended from the ancient family of Baskerville, or Erdisley, in Hereford, of who the celebrated Camden says:- “Erdisley, where the ancient and famous family of Baskerville have long inhabited which bred in old times so many nobel knights”.

The learned Sir Bernard Burke in his History of the Commoners, Vol 1, Page 89, of the Baskervilles, says:-

“That they are one of the most ancient and honourable in England; its name is on the roll of Battle Abbey; it ever has maintained the highest rank amongst the gentry, and BOASTS THE BLOOD OF THE PLANTAGENETS. Sir Bernard Burke also prints Percy’s pedigree of the Baskerville’s PROVING that THEY and their descendants derive their descent from the Kings of France, of England, of Scotland, from the Princes of North and South Wales, from the Counts of Flanders, and from Charlemagne, Emperor of the West”. Sir Bernard Burke also alludes to Sir James Baskerville, of Erdisley (Ancestor of William Baskerville, of Wansborough), who married Katherine Devereux, daughter of Walter Devereux, Baron Ferrars, of Chartley, consequently the Baskervilles through the alliance from Edward I, who married Eleanor, daughter of Ferdinand III, King of Castile, who derived from C.I.D., the celebrated champion of Spain, against the Moors.

To Island of Ireland

Thomas Forster had issue by his wife Anne Baskerville:- i) Thomas Forster, Esq., of Hunsdon ii) John Forster iii) Edward Forster iv) Captain Francis Forster, of Clooneene, County of Galway, Ireland v) Charles Forster vi) Philip Forster 6 daughters.

Captain Francis Forster, son of Thomas Forster of Hunsdon, Esq. (Grandson of Lord Chief Justice). He was Captain of Dragoons in the army of King Charles I, in Ireland A.D. 1649. He was one of those called the “49 Officers” denominated so for having served Charles I prior to the 5th June 1649. His certificate is enrolled in the Record Office, Dublin. He settled in the County of Galway and on the restoration of Charles II, 1660, received his arrears of pay. It is mentioned in three records that he was a PURCHASER OF LANDS in the counties of Galway, Clare, Roscommon and Mayo. He also possessed extensive property in the town of Galway, and had a patent from Charles II, for the lands of Clunfall, in the barony of Cloonmacnoon, in the County of Galway, Dromshurna, in the barony of Moycarnon, County of Roscommon, for his mansion house and estates in Clooneene, with their CHIEFRYS AND MANORIAL RIGHTS, for Caherbroder, Ballyboy, Rue, Hollywood, Knocklaurence, Killany, near Kinvarra, and Caherforvas, near Rahaeane, and various other lands in the County of Clare, and Barony of Corcamro. In this patent, he is styled by King Charles “his faithful subject, Francis Forster”. In 1688, in the new Charter given for the town of Galway, his name is amongst those styled, “Esquires”. Francis Forster died on September 23rd, 1698. He married Mary, daughter of Sir James O’Donnellan, Chief Justice of Connaught, in 1637, son of O’Donnellan of Ballydonnellan, Chief of Clanbrassal, by his wife Elizabeth O’Donnell, daughter of R. O’Donnell, Earl of Tyrconnall, whose brother was Red Hugh, the celebrated hero, who was a “lion in strength, a Ceasar in command”, according to the annals of the Four Masters. The O’Donnells were descendants of Niall “of the Nine Hostages”, Monarch of Ireland; through his son, Conal Culban.

Captain Forster left issue:- i) James Forster, Esq., his heir ii)A daughter, married to Martyn, of Tillyra Castle, in 1676 iii)Mary, who married Macnamara of Moyriesk, Co. Clare. The Macnamara’s derive from Cass, King of Thomond, a.d. 402 iv) Sarah Forster married O’Kelly of Mullaghmore Castle, killed at Aughrim, 12th July, 1691. The O’Kelly’s of Mullaghmore Castle, were descended from William O’Kelly, son of Thady Dubh O’Kelly, of Gallagh Castle, Chief of Hy-Maine. v) A daughter married R. Blakeney of Castle Blakeney vi) A daughter married Charles Morgan Esq., of Kilcolgan Castle. The Morgans claim descent from Caracticus, King of Wales.

James Forster Esq., of Clooneene and Rathorpe, High Sheriff of the County of Galway in 1689-90; he had a patent for lands in the barony of Cloonmacnoone, viz, the lands of Caltraleagh, in 1677. He married Ellen Burke, daughter of Gerald Burke, of Tyaquin and Ironpool, County of Galway. The Burkes of Tyaquin, were one of the principal branches of the illustrious House of De Burgo. Colonel Burke, of Tyaquin, was famous in his day for his military exploits; he was the last in the war of 1691, who surrendered to De Ginckell in Galway. James Forster left issue:- John Forster, Esq., of Clooneene, who died in 1703 without issue; Captain Francis Forster, of Rathorpe, who succeeded to the estates on the demise of his brother; Mary Forster, married John O’Brien Esq., of Coriduff, County Clare. This family are descended from the same ancestor as the present Lord Baron of Inchiquin. A daughter married to William Stacpoole of Mountcashel Castle, Co. Clare. Margaret Forster, unmarried in 1720.

Captain Francis Forster, of Clooneene, and Rathorpe, served in Clifford’s Dragoons for the cause of James II, and at the battle of Aughrim, 1691, being attacked by three of the enemy, he despatched two of them, but his horse being shot and falling on him, he would have been slain had not an Irish soldier named O’Flanagan, who, seeing the danger Captain Forster was in, shot dead his remaining foe. After the battle he gave O’Flanagan land at that part of his estates called Hollywood. Captain Forster gave the use of his house, in Cross Street, Galway, to the Dominican Nuns, who were turned out of it in the year 1715, by order of the Mayor of Galway. When the persecution ceased, they returned again to Captain Forster’s house. Captain Forster married on the 17th August, 1700, Mary MacDonnell, only daughter of Captain James MacDonnell, of Kilkee, Co. Clare, an officer in King James’s army, who was the son of Daniel MacDonnell, who was the son of the honourable Cormac (Charles) MacDonnell, third son of the noble Randal MacDonnell, of Dunluce Castle, Earl of Antrim. Cormac MacDonnell’s brother, Randal, was created Marquis of Antrim by Charles I, and his second brother, Alexander MacDonnell, became afterwards the Earl of Antrim. The father of Cormac, Randal, Earl of Antrim, married Eilice O’Neill, daughter of Matthew O’Neill, Baron of Dungannon, son of Con O’Neill, Prince of Ulster. She was also a sister of Hugh O’Neill, Earl of Tyrone. The grandfather of Cormac MacDonnell was the celebrated Chieftain “Sorley Boy”, head of the Sept of MacDonnell in Ireland. The Antrim MacDonnells derive from Clla-Uas, who was Monarch of Ireland, and afterwards became “Lord of the Isles” in Scotland, John MacDonnell, of his family married the Princess Margaret, daughter of Robert II, King of Scotland, and granddaughter of Robert Bruce, the King of Scotland. The wife of Cormac MacDonnell was the daughter of Donal More O’Brien, of Ennistymon, son of Conor, LAST KING OF THOMOND, in 1531.

Captain Forster made his will in 1730 – proved in 1731 – and, as he directed in his will, was buried with his ancestors at Kilmacduagh Abbey“; he left issue: i) James Forster, his heir ii) John Forster, who became Solicitor-General and settled in North America iii) William Forster, who went to the Continent, joined the French Army, and, in reward for his services was created a Count, by title of “THE COUNT DE FORESTIER”. iv) Edward Forster, of Kilbricken, County of Clare, Esq., a famous duellist who went to France on a fighting tour with Macnamara, of Moyriesk, County of Clare. v) Thomas Forster, of Lurga, County of Galway vi) Simon Forster, of Fidane, County Galway, Esq., who married Mary, daughter of Philip Lynch, of Refiladown, Esq., Philip Lynch’s other daughter was mother of James Fitzgerald, Esq., father of Lord Fitzgerald and Vesey. Simon Forster had issue:- i) James Forster, of Fidane, Esq., who married daughter of Peter Butler, of Bunahow, County of Clare, Esq., and had issue:- i) Simon Forster ii) John Forster iii) Robert Forster iv) Francis, Surgeon to the 59th Regiment, who left a large sum of money to be divided amongst the widows of his parish v) Peter Forster, who had an estate in the Island of St. Christophers. He also left a sum of money to the poor of his native parish of Beagh, County of Galway. And four daughters.

James Forster, eldest son and heir of Clooneene and Rathorpe, married Mary daughter of Nicholas Ffrench, Esq. His administration was granted in march 1752 to his son. He had issue:- i) Francis Forster ii) Captain John Forster iii) Geoffrey Forster, of Rose Hill iv) Mary, married to James Burke, of Strawburg, County of Clare, whose third daughter was the wife of Dominick D’Arcy O’Brien, of Ennistymon, Esq. Mary Forster is mentioned in the will of her uncle, Charles MacDonnell, of Kilkee, in 1743.

Francis Forster, Esq., of Clooneene (now called Ashfield), married Annastatia Blake, ONLY CHILD AND SOLE HEIR of Sir Ulic Blake, Bart, of Menlough Castle, by his wife Mary, the DAUGHTER AND SOLE HEIR of Robert Blake, of ARDFRY, Esq., County of Galway, by his wife, Annastatia Daly, daughter of Denis Daly, who was Justice of the Common Pleas, and a Privy Councillor in the time of King James II. Robert Blake, of Ardfry was the lineal descendant of Sir Richard Blake, M.P. for Galway, in 1639, and Chairman, or Speaker of the Confederate Catholic Council of Kilkenny, in 1649. Lady Mary Blake sold her estate of Ardfry to Joseph Blake, first Lord Wallescourt, but retained part of her father’s estates in the town and county of Galway, amongst others Trainbane estate, where she died.

Sir Ulic Blake, her husband died in the year 1766, having issue ONLY ONE DAUGHTER, HIS SOLE HEIR, who, with her Mother, Lady Mary, retained the possession of the Castle and demesne of Menlough etc., etc., etc. It appears that in 1748, Sir Thomas Blake, father of Sir Ulic, made a will directing that in the case that his son had no MALE issue, it was to revert to remaindermen; and first, he names two gentlemen, living in the town of Galway, named Blake, as remaindermen, who both died without issue. Secondly, he named another remainderman in these words:- “I leave to Thomas Blake, of Brindrim, in the County of Mayo, the reversion” but DOES NOT STATE THAT ANY DEGREE OF RELATIONSHIP EXISTED BETWEEN HIMSELF OR THE REMAINDERMEN. In 1766 Thomas Blake, of Brindrim, returned from Bordeaux, and claimed the estates under the WILL, MAURICE AND JOHN BLAKE, OF GALWAY BEING THEN DEAD AND HAVING LEFT NO ISSUE. This claim being resisted by Lady Blake and her daughter successfully. Sir Thomas Blake finally proposed to give the sum of £8,000 to Annastatia Blake-Forster and her husband to get possession of Menlough Castle, and a deed of compromise was accordingly executed which bears the date of 1772. Lady Blake, on her daughter giving birth to a son and heir, Robert Blake-Forster, agreed with his father to make a STRICT SETTLEMENT of all her extensive estates after her decease on her grandchild, WHICH SETTLEMENT IS DULY ENROLED in the record office, Dublin.

Francis Forster was successfully High Sheriff for the County of Galway and Clare. He died in February, 1788, at Rose Hill House, near Gort, County of Galway and Clare, one of his residences. He left issue:- i) Robert Blake-Forster, born 11th June 1769 ii) James Blake-Forster, who died without issue at Rath, 1813.  Robert Blake-Forster, Esq., of Ashfield and Knockmoy Abbey, County of Galway, married in 1787, Anne eldest daughter of Colonel Denis Daly of Raford, in this County, by his wife Letitia, daughter of Donnellan, Esq., of Ballydonnellan. Dennis Daly was the son of Denis Daly Esq., of Raford, by his wife the Lady Anne de Burgo, daughter of Michael Tenth Earl of Clanricarde, whose Aunt the Lady Honoria, daughter of John, Ninth Earl of Clanrickarde, was married first to Patrick Sarsfield, Earl of Lucan, the brave defender of Limerick, secondly the Duke of Berwick, her descendants by him are the Duc de Fizjames in France and the Duke of Alba in Spain. The mother of this Denis Daly was Annastatia D’Arcy, of Iltullagh, aunt of the celebrated Count D’Arcy, a general in the French army. The O’Daly’s are of the same origin as the princely family of the O’Donnells of Tyrconnall. They settled in Connaught in the 12th Century, and were famed for bravery and oratory. O’Daly, lately Captain General of Catalonia, in Spain, is of this family.

R. Blake-Forster died 24th August, 1799, at his mansion house of Ashfield, and was interred with his ancestors at Kilmacduagh Abbey, County of Galway. He left issue:- i) Francis Blake-Forster ii) Denis Blake-Forster iii) Robert Blake-Forster iv) James Blake-Forster, Esq., an officer in the Royal Navy, who lost his arm at the bombardment of Algiers, on the 27th of August, 1816. He was then 18 years of age, and a Lieutenant on board the Severn Frigate. He was one of the officers on board the Bellerophon, when Napoleon was received on board that vessel. v) Anne, who married William Butler, Esq., of Bunahow, County of Clare. vi) Emily, who married D. MacNevin Esq., and had issue:- i) Thomas MacNevin, barrister-at-law, Esq., author of “The Irish Volunteers” and “The Confiscation of Ulster”. He was one of the seven who wrote for the “Nation” newspaper.

Francis Blake-Forster, Esq., of Ashfield and Knockmoy Abbey, in this county, was born at Raford, the seat of his grandfather, on 26th November 1787. He married on the 15th October, 1810, the Honourable Rose Ffrench, daughter of the Right Honourable, Lord Baron Ffrench, of Castle Ffrench, in this county, who was one of the Catholic deputies sent to England in 1793. The nobel family of Ffrench derive from Harleon, son of Robert, Duke of Normandy. Sixty-one of this family held the offices of Mayors or Sheriffs of the town of Galway. Fifteen of the Ffrenchs took and subscribed to the Catholic Oath of Union, in 1641.

In the struggle for Catholic Emancipation, Blake-Forster took an active part, and on 24th June was chosen Chairman of the great meeting at Ennis, which resulted in the representation being contested; he was one of the committee appointed to conduct the return of Daniel O’Connell. He died on the 10th November 1837, and was interred with his ancestors, at Kilmacduagh. Francis Blake-Forster left five children – two sons and three daughters – who still survive. One son was Captain Blake-Forster, J.P., of Forster Street House, in this city and Ballykeale, Co. Clare. Captain Francis Blake-Forster, J.P., of Castle Forster, who married in 1846, Mary Josephine, eldest daughter and co-heiress of Henry Comerford, Esq., J.P. of Ballykeale House, Co. Clare.  He left issue:- ii) Captain Francis O’Donnellan Blake-Forster, i) Charles Ffrench Blake-Forster. Author of Irish Chieftains, High Sheriff of Galway in 1874, died in his 23rd year unmarried.

Captain Francis O’Donnellan Blake-Forster of Castle Forster, Kinvara, County Galway and Ballykeale House, Co. Clare, who was High Sheriff of Galway in 1878. He married in 1879, Marcella, eldest daughter of Robert Johnston, Esq., J.P., of Arran View, Doolin, Co. Clare, and co-heiress of Sir Burton Macnamara. i) Francis Blake-Forster, of Corr House, Co. Clare, who married in 1914, Ethel R. Taaffe. He is the present head of the family O’Donnellan Blake-Forster ii) Robert Blake-Forster iii) The O’Donnellan (Donie) Blake-Forster married Julia iv) Catherine Blake-Forster, who married in 1910, John St. George Lucas Esq., J.P., Sandfield, Co. Clare. v) Mary Blake-Forster, who married in 1911, David Crawford Pearson, Esq., M.D., Lisdoonvarna, Co. Clare. vii) Frances R. Blake-Forster, who married in 1918, Arthur Matthew Kelly Esq., Porte, Co. Clare. viii) Marcella Blake-Forster, who married Michael Comyn, KC

Written as transcribed from the Genealogical Sketch of the Sept of  Blake-Forster published in the “Galway Vindicator” 1866 dated October 20th.  The present two generations will be detailed as an addition at later stage.

  • Sir Thomas (and his wife Margaret Redington) had a daughter Hon. Rose ffrench (d. 13 Dec 1857). She married Francis Blake-Forster of Ashfield, Co. Galway, on 14 Oct 1810. This is confirmed in peerage records (e.g., Cracroft’s Peerage, Burke’s). thepeerage.com

Updated: 26th July 2026 by Michelle Clarke.

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Trinity College Dublin 1997 to 2003 but no Degree (18,300 words). Part II is essay “Can mental illness be seen as a social deviance?” by Michelle Clarke

20th July 2019: National screening 2017 revealed breast cancer.  I advanced a little further and I wrote a book:  Title Fortune Favours the Brave.  https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639610/  Maybe it would be better to read the book than this essay which was my final submission to Trinity College Dublin, as requested, but I never received any acknowledgement.  I just drifted into further ill-health.  Publishers: Michael Terence, Oxford, UK.  https://mtp.agency/authors

 

 

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Manic depression. The highs and the lows, the possibilities that become impossible. Unlike other students with disabilities I did not have a special needs assistant until the third and final year. The Disabilities Department (representing students with a variety of disabilities) at Trinity College Dublin requested a meeting with me in 2002. My health/disabilities case history could possibly enable a case to be put before the relevant people in the BESS (Business Economics and Social Studies) faculty at Trinity College Dublin which would allow for an alternate assessment instead of completion of final 3rd year examinations. This, at that time, was a most attractive option, if it could be achieved. Somehow, probably as my health deteriorated rapidly, the ambition lost momentum but not without meetings between the professors of the various departments related to BESS, the counselling service (Tenia Kalinok) https://www.tcd.ie/Student_Counselling/, Ivor Crotty (teaching assistant) who was assigned 1 hour per week with me for the 2002/2003 year. It was agreed that two essays be completed but then there was confusion that five essays or even 10 essays would be required.

It is important to note that at this time in 2003, all assignments, projects had been completed successfully by me and yes I have them all on lever arch files and on computer.

I continued trying to keep the channels of communication open throughout my period of illness, as detailed. I think the following letter best explains how I engaged with the communication. What made communication so difficult is that being partially deaf and with memory deficits as a result of brain damage, I don’t use the phone for communication. I use email. As an introduction I start with this letter written in 2011 to then Provost Hegarty (now replaced by Provost Prendergast) because for over a decade successful communication with the College faltered and I remain in a situation where I engaged with Trinity College Dublin but we failed to negotiate and achieve the outcome ie a Degree for a student with disabilities who had completed the lectures, the course work, the projects, the group assignments.

Last email to Trinity College Dublin

Subject: Professor Hegarty, Provost, Trinity College Dublin:
Best wishes. Enjoy the Queen of England and the visit to Trinity.
A degree that might be possible!!!!
Date: Fri, 13 May 2011 09:58:18 +0100
From: Michelle Clarke
To: Provost

Dear Provost Hegarty

I am listening to you now on the radio.

You may or may not know me via my email onslaught.

With great interest I enjoyed your comment about learning ‘as distinct from
exams’. Trinity BESS gave me, with the neuro-psychiatric complications associated due to a horse riding accident, an opportunity to engage with learning albeit at a snails pace. Trinity Horizon project 1997  carried out the initial research via Centre for Women Studies on ‘How to re-integrate women in society with depression’. I was one of the first 15 researched. I then gained access to Trinity College BESS…..I stumbled, I fell, I got hospitalised, ECT too but got back and nearly made it over the final hurdle and fell yet again. This was 2003, the diagnosis was debilitating chronic fatigue – all I do is very little but the education, the confidence, the ability to learn, the use of adaptive technology gained during my years in Trinity College has allowed me to live with a few hours each day…repetitive routine and rest but participating in society by writing.

Catriona Curtis is the last person to correspond with me from Trinity College Dublin. Under the auspices of the Disabilities department and with the support of my Psychologist Tenia Kalinok, Counselling Service Trinity, who I attended for nearly 4 years, the plan was to see if my exceptional health circumstances (i.e. Acquired Brain Injury, Bipolar and exceptional anxiety) would allow me to complete my final exams by way of essays.

I know 2003 is many years ago now but maybe somebody might be able to review my file and see if the outcome of those meetings between BESS professors, the Disabilities team, Declan Treanor, Brian Lucey (Tutor), Counseling service, Tenia Kalinok Counseling Service, ever had an impact on policy and an outcome. I hold a keen interest naturally in the works of Professor Ian Robertson and the neuroscience department also.  If so, maybe I can conclude the degree.

I did submit what was required but there was a conflict about the number of essays: The file was left with BESS on the due date in November 2003 for the attention of Professor Dermot McAleese, Dean of Business and therein I find little correspondence since then.

10 years is a long time and I am sure you will miss Trinity. I wish you the very best in the future. Enjoy the visit of the Queen of England. It is historical times and Peace – let it flow.

Regards

Michelle Clarke
Quotation:
Jonathan Swift
‘Give vision to the visionless’

PS: I have progressed to being another research sample in Trinity College Dublin.
TILDA (Professor Kenny – Trinity College Dublin) http://www.tilda.ie, a study of people aged 50 and monitoring their health and social progress over years. The details of this will be included in my health history file. Samples of hair and blood are now registered with Trinity College Dublin and St James’s Hospital.



Alternate Assessment to final 3rd year BESS exams as a precedent using my case history as proposed by the Disabilities Department Trinity College, Counseling services

WHERE TO NOW?

March 2015 and now I have reached acceptance that there can be no BESS degree for me from Trinity College Dublin. Too much time has elapsed and it would be impossible for me to return to Trinity College and again seek alternate assessment or to complete the final exams. Instead I am going to take the opportunity of traversing the digital divide and making available to all readers what exactly I did in anticipation of receiving my Degree in 2003.

I prepared a folder for presentation to Professor McAleese, BESS Department, Trinity College Dublin for submission November 17th 2003. It was not acknowledged formally but was referred to in correspondence over the decade that ensued. What I eventually submitted was not exactly as requested because the submission date was November 2003 and my extreme exhaustion/burn-out left me very sick and I had no access to either special needs assistance or to the library. However, I do think what I presented merits some form of recognition even if just negative and No. I have so many boxes of files and I know somewhere there is an exact replica of what I presented that day in November 2003 but I cannot find it. At this point I must state that I was greatly hampered when my only computer hard-drive was removed from my apartment on the instructions on An Garda Siochana for a period in excess of two years, for reasons unknown.  The GSOC finally intervened and my hard drive was returned and I once again had access to all my Trinity College Dublin correspondence, files, reports, projects, emails, essays. It is from these files I can now proceed.

The essay CAN MENTAL ILLNESS BE UNDERSTOOD AS A FORM OF SOCIAL DEVIANCE? although written in September 2003 for practical purposes will be appear in PART II. There was a rapid deterioration in my health between September when I completed the essay and November 17th 2003 when I tried to address my reasons for not complying and providing a second essay. I must point out that mobility and an inability due to head injury to use phones I was unable to effectively communicate with the relevant personnel in Trinity College Dublin. Instead I sought justification and included articles written by me on social issues on Irish Health site, these will be identified as PART III.



PART I

Essay and explanation submitted to Professor McAleese as requested for completion date 17th November 2003

The essay was completed first and what is written below has been amended but only slightly because it is necessary to reflect how manic depression, complicated by frontal lobe brain damage due to Traumatic Brain Injury (TBI) and the onset of chronic fatigue impacted on the final submission as requested by Trinity College Dublin marked for the attention of Professor McAleese, BESS (Business Economics and Social Studies) Department, Arts Building. I hold the original on file if anyone wants to access it or for that matter it may still be available at Trinity College Dublin in the file format I submitted.

File folder presented to BESS Department for the attention of ProfessorMcAleese 17th November 2003. I will always be an activist for the marginalised even without the qualification of a BESS Degree from Trinity College Dublin but always with the confidence that I have gained what I truly value and that is learning and an education. (Up-dated March 2015).

Email submitted as agreed with Trinity College Dublin, 17th November 2003

The Dean
Professor D. McAleese
Dean
BESS Faculty
Arts Building
Trinity College Dublin
Dublin 2.

17th November 2003

Dear Professor McAleese

I refer to your letter dated 21st August 2003. Having applied ‘Hasten slowly’.

No is my answer – the content is not acceptable.

I completed the 1st essay as requested title Can mental illness be understood as a form of social deviance? I completed same in September 2003 and realized that my case is ‘not understood’ and that the option you provide is tokenism for my exit from Trinity.

The rest of the correspondence is self explanatory.

I was asked by Declan Treanor, Disabilities Department, Trinity College Dublin to return to Trinity in 2002/2003 to complete my 3rd year BESS degree based the most unusual grounds of neurological brain damage; bipolar illness; anxiety and 5 senses affected from the brain damage, as it was considered the most probable means of effecting a precedent case for alternate assessment provision for people with similar levels of disabilities as outlined by me. The motivation was to make alternate assessment a possibility for those who by health circumstances are ‘different’ but entitled to be included.

I can only say that the professionalism one would expect from a University of such renown is lacking. The only constant support I have had is through the Centre for Women Studies; Dr. Margret Fine-Davis and Dr. Mary McCarthy; and from the Psychology Department and Tenia Kalinok who worked consistently with me over 4/5 years. Individuals also were most supportive and this includes students, lecturers, teaching assistants, tutors, and fellow students particularly those with disabilities.

It is my request that I be afforded the respect that has been lacking. I want my case history of mental illness ‘bipolar’ complicated by anxiety and serious brain damage affecting 5 senses ‘understood’ within the context of acceptable parameters. I was asked in 2002 by Declan Treanor, Disabilities Department Trinity, with my agreement, for medical reports; neuro-psychological reports and provided same. I acted contrary to the
advice of my psychiatrist, Dr Jim Maguire and others. I feel committed by way of life experience to speak out as a human being first and as an individual about the non-inclusion of people due to Trinity College Dublin’s strict regimentation and an inability to adapt.

This file is a sample of the correspondence with Trinity; a sample of letters I write concerning social justice based on the education I have received and the experiences in life I have encountered. The story written in February 2002 was in desperation to no response to myriads of explanations about my health relating to the Senior Tutors correspondence. I was assured that my input would have been minimal. It proved to be
quite the contrary and futile.

I provide a sample of articles written for Fergal Bowers. I started writing when I became virtually immobile in March 2003 and could not sleep. I will prepare an index.

Regards

Michelle Clarke.

March 20 2015: I have removed certain personal data but it is held on file.
Where necessary I have updated the correspondence.


Notes attached:

As manic depression (I prefer this definition to bipolar) is evident from what you will read below, I have had to make some amendments but I retain enough to show that the mind is ‘scattered’ but the intention is an underlying need to seek improvement in the conditions of those who are marginalised in society and who can benefit from third level education. It is essential to realise this was written in 2003 and it is now 2015 so significant changes apply. (There is nothing that substantially alters what was submitted, apart from order. I cannot locate the duplicate hard copy file so am relying on data files on the computer).



 

The introduction to the Folder submitted to Professor McAleese,  17th November 2003, BESS dept, Trinity College Dublin by Michelle Clarke

I have selected this poem to include with the submission.

First they came for the Jews
And I did not speak out
Because I was not a Jew

Then they came for the communists
And I did not speak out
Because I was not a communist

They they came for the trade unionists
And I did not speak out
Because I was not a trade Unionist

Then they came for me
And there was no one left to speak out for me.

Profound: This was written by Pastor Niemoeller (Victim of the Nazis)

I have been using what energy I have trying to be a voice but it is a wilderness. No-one listens or hears.

Alternate Assessment was what I sought as a precedent for others. (As stated previously, this project was initiated by the Disabilities Department in Trinity College Dublin under the direction of (Declan Treanor, and Orlaith O’Brien). Again the correspondence is significant. A full outline of my medical case history and reports from the relevant medical professionals and neuro-psychologist, Dr Martina McEnroe-O’Connor, with personal notes (on request) were submitted initially in 2002 and throughout 2003 to the year 2015).

The file is for you to determine the decision or to be more apt the inability of Trinity College Dublin, BESS department, to acknowledge receipt of my submission to Professor McAleese thereby ignoring rather than acknowledging receipt on the due date of 17th November 2003. I would question the ability of people to understand ethics, humanity and inclusiveness.

Factors for consideration about people with Disabilities:

The significance of the year is that 2003 was European Year for People with disabilities.

Selected pieces published by Fergal Bowers https://www.irishhealth.com will form the final part of this submission (see Part III).

Quotations selected: (2015 clarification: I am unable to retain by rote memory anything, again this reflects frontal lobe damage to the brain.  I have used quotations because this is part of my coping strategy, much as I now use twitter to augment my memory daily.

‘Into every tiny scheme for arranging the pattern of human life, it is
necessary to inject a certain dose of anarchism – enough to prevent
immobility leading to decay, but not enough to bring about disruption’
Bertrand Russell: Skeptical Essays

Thank you Ivor (Special needs assistant assigned to me for 1 hour each week in my final year), for treating me with respect, intellect and dignity and for introducing me to Erving Goffman. This significant quote in 2015 I would suggest deeply excoriates what it is like to have mental health complicated by traumatic brain injury within a hostile academic environment.

To explain further the significance of illness especially mental illness,  I refer to:

Notes on the Management of Spoiled Identity:

Sample:
‘For example while the mental patient is in the hospital, and when he is
with adult members of his own family, he is faced with being treated
tactfully as if he were sane when there is known to be some doubt, even
though he may not have any; or he is treated as insane when he knows
this is not just. But for the ex-mental patient, the problem can be
quite different; it is not that he must face the prejudice against
himself, but rather that he must face unwitting acceptance of himself by
individuals who are prejudiced against persons of the kind, he can be
revealed to be. Wherever he goes his behaviour will falsely confirm to
the other that they are in the company of what in effect they demand but
may discover they haven’t obtained, namely a mentally untainted person
like themselves. By intention or in effect the ex mental patient
conceals information about self that I am focusing on in these notes’

March 2015. This may appear confusing in the midst of what ought to be a submission but I would ask the readers to take account of what manic depression is and I quite evidently ruminated on how my declaration of being mentally ill as well as having traumatic injury could prejudice my position. Quotations play a significant part in my rehabilitation because of the memory deficits associated severe limits to short term memory.

Please note: 2001/2002 absent due to illness

Return from illness, but became ill with another condition Academic

Year: 2002/2003

The Purpose:
To establish precedent for alternate assessment.  The proposition was presented to me by Disabilities Department, Trinity College Dublin. The evidence speaks for itself, so I now choose to include a relevant sample. As stated previously I hold hard copies on computer and hardcopy files.

Negotiation:

I was asked for medical reports from my psychiatrist and neuro-psychiatrist but albeit the Disabilities Department already held two of Dr Martina McEnroe O’Connor, neuro-psychologists reports, they required a third. They also received a report from Dr Jim Maguire (Psychiatrist). I attended two appointments inspite of being in a poor state of health – these are disturbing and most comprehensive. Clearly, the comments made indicated people bluffed a knowledge of what a neuro-psychological assessment means i.e. apart from Tenia Kalinok, Counselling Department Trinity College Dublin. I also attended Professor Lorraine Cassidy, (Trinity College Dublin) Ophthalmologist (other conditions were found relating to the occipital area of the brain at the time of brain injury.  Again this appears to have been deemed irrelevant.

1915: My conclusion is that like a ship rudderless, the Disabilities Department in
Trinity detached from the mission to obtain alternate assessment based on
my exceptional disability related conditions.

In the words stated in 2003 with the submission made to Professor McAleese, Business Economics Social Studies, Trinity College Dublin.

I suspect: the decision had been made not to proceed with my case and I was not informed. The EU https://www.tcd.ie/news_events/…/trinity…funding…horizon…/4707hori funded a person qualified to deal with my situation for two hours a week (1 hr received). The Disabilities Department in Trinity College Dublin based on my reports, my notes, emails, medical reports made the application. No one suggested paying for the neuro-psychology, psychiatric reports or anything else for that matter. In retrospect (and this is my view in 2003) this did not necessarily reflect procedure in relation to other students with disabilities.

Attending the counselor Tenia Kalinok, was by way of another student who suggested it when I returned after 5 months in hospital and 15 sessions of ECT. Two years later I had a most traumatic divorce with 7 lever arch files being brought into the court. There are other matters that are of no relevance but just cumulative life experience. Year 2003 post divorce I was called before the Annulment court, again most harrowing. Tenia was of key support.

2015 comment: It is necessary to note that all assignments, projects, essays were completed by me for the 2002-2003 academic year.

Account of this is necessary in the decision to provide alternate assessment surely. After the divorce, I continued at Trinity.  5 students – 3rd year decided to group together for our Qualitative Research project. We did considerable work that was rewarded with
either 74 or 76. 2 students continued on and received their Degree. This speaks volumes.

2015 and my chances of ever receiving a Degree from Trinity College Dublin are minimal in spite of completing three academic years and the relevant course work. The provision of alternate assessment would mean I would have to (14 years on) re-sit Third year BESS and that is untenable.

At the time it was explained to me that the the exponential growth of plagiarism would be the stumbling block to achieving alternate assessment.  This is a real problem for me to grasp and if considered is again based on the fact that the message “Ethics” is not being conveyed by the Disabilities Department to the decision makers about my case history and needs. It explains also the procedure to learn off other peoples’ essays as is so possible for many other students therefore providing education without understanding. My view in 2015 is that surely when the Disabilities Department decided to make application for alternate assessment, their grounds took account of my exceptional needs and that Ethics was core to my endeavours. I feel now that I did not receive the support required hence I have no Degree from Trinity College Dublin and yet it was my final year exam and all assignments were completed and successfully I must add).  Return to 2003 submission to Professor McAleese.

Information concerning people with disabilities included:
(this can be contextualised with what achievements have occurred in the last decade)
2003 – Year for the Special Olympics Ability and Talent

We have evidence yet we have so many organizations representing others that the individual’s needs that are mainly case specific are in fact  neglected.

Funded by Irish Exchequer and supported under the National Development
Plan 2000-2006

  • ‘Ready Willing and Able’
  • An Employer’s guide to hiring people with a disability.
  • Over 2,000 people with disabilities receive skills training, through
    FAS, to prepare them for the labour market
  • There are 800 people with disabilities studying in Third Level Institutions. Please note very few people are willing identify with mental health history. (I chose to be open having made the decision at the Trinity Horizon (1997) project (presently Horizon 2020) https://www.tcd.ie/news_events/…/trinity…funding…horizon…/4707). All I want to say is I witnessed others particularly, men (clever men) drift out of the net within the confines  of an Educational system that is supposed to be moving towards inclusion.
  • Many more students with disabilities complete 2nd level education.
  • Inclusion Europe – Fighting discrimination in Europe
    (Inclusion works with the European Commission; and the European Parliament. They convey what their members want. They are involved with self-advocates and their parents in 29 European Countries).
  • The European Association of Societies of Persons with intellectual disability and their family.
  • Objectives:
    To fight against discrimination
    Human rights for people with intellectual disabilities
    Inclusion of all people in society
  • The European directive further endorse provisions for people with disabilities
    Reasonable accommodation
    Positive actions for disabled people are allowed
    Defending your rights
    The right to information (Inability of Trinity College Dublin to respond by email: an
    effective method of communication and assisting a person with special needs)

With 350,000 people with disabilities living in Ireland, we have taken the initiative and brought it closer to home. A total of 46 projects have been chosen to receive EU funding and government grants to further goals and objectives.  Funding of Euros500,000 has been provided by the European Commission and the Department of Justice, Equality and Law Reform. Awareness raising youth and disability, rights, responsibilities and partnership employment are to be beneficiaries.

What the law states?  

The Equal Status Act 2000 https://http://www.equality.ie › Home › Informations  outlaws discrimination against people with disabilities in employment and vocational training. 70% average of people with disabilities are not in employment.  The Government is committed to bringing through disability employment this year https://www.eypd.org info@inclusion-international.org or
http://www.inclusion-international.org

Individualism; accommodation; humanity; equality; freedom; justice
Michelle – a student funded by the EU and the State asks the question:

Why discriminate?

I suggest that health may prevent me fitting into the necessary economic model. However I do have a distinct value a social capital worth and experience.  I did not ask for acquired brain injury and the onset of mental illness at the age of 32. I have a wide variety of life experiences. In 6 weeks during a bipolar episode Fergal Bowers approved for publication over 140 articles. My physical capabilities diminished, as Lithium invoked metabolism problems, and the hospital had lost my regular set of bloods. It did not stop me wanting to assist others. This is my choice of social capital. Money can do nothing to improve my life now.

Some examples: As long as my depression is at bay – life is good in an uncomplicated walk down Wellington Road to Baggot Street and a chat to the young girls in the coffee shop. I get to read the paper. You see this is where education assists me. The minute I read it is gone to oblivion but evidently the oblivion is the subconscious and I read something and all those lectures I attended at Trinity, which I fail to remember in a structured form, but in a subliminal way, means there is an understanding that enables me to engage with life. Today’s news linked to pre-accident memory and whatever is subliminal enable me to write about events. I carry the diary that the neuro-surgeon in Zimbabwe told me I would have to carry for the remainder of my life.

Participation related to social contributions while at Trinity College Dublin:-

Centre for Women Studies, Trinity College Dublin. https://www.tcd.ie/cgws/ Dr Margret Fine-Davis; Dr Mary McCarthy

Mental Health and the Workplace – Challenges and Opportunities.
Maura and I (both from the first group of 15 people researched by Trinity Horizon project 1996/1997 which included Aware also) https://www.tcd.ie/research/profiles/index.php?profile=mfdavis…true, spoke about our life experiences as people with mental health problems. Maura is at least a decade younger than me. The conference was held in a lecture theatre in the Arts block, Trinity College Dublin. This was attended by medical professionals in psychiatry; psychology, nurses, social workers and other invited guests. The message was that these professionals do not wish to harm us; in fact it is the concern they have for people with mental health problems and the real futility that exists.

1997/98:
I was asked by KS who was studying at Trinity College Dublin (Social Science) if I would speak to her about mental illness. I knew her from Zimbabwe and felt obliged. This was particularly difficult scenario for me and in retrospect I would caution ethics as a priority when engaging in such research.  (I brought this up at a lecture by Professor Holton as did another student with similar experiences to me. The assumption that the ‘patient’ knows nothing because the aspiring social worker has already assumed the mantle of ‘Social Worker’ leaves the procedure wide open to problems for the interviewee.
(Notes available).

2001/2002
CH a young newly qualified social worker, whom I had met in the Disabilities room, Trinity College Dublin, asked if she could cover my mental health history. It was difficult I was extremely unwell but CH was willing to learn and I knew her objective was to help others. She is now a Mental Health Social worker in Swords. She will confirm it was a very slow process because of my weakness but we got there. CH was possibly the one person who assuaged me with a very simple message. She had cerebral palsy from birth and was never afraid or intimidated, she astutely stated the obvious. She observed that I constantly compared the now and before ie prior to my accident in 1993 and was extremely hard on myself. She helped me gain courage and acceptance. (Completed report available on request).

A partial biography (files exist): It forms the transition of four years counseling at Trinity College Dublin with Tenia Kalinok (Counselling service) and prior to that with Dr. Mary McCarthy, Centre for Women Studies.  It is a biography of a person who moved home 32 times by the age of 43.  It is with this piece of work I intend to promote that Government Ministers foster a concept that people who have had very disturbing
experiences in their lives be provided with education and counseling services within the confines of formal education. This implies a reduction in compensation awards and providing people with coping mechanisms through counseling in the environment of a university campus. In England, they speak of Mental Health Survivors. Let us
consider this option. The shortfall in the compensation amount could be paid to those providing the education.

This document has been given to the Centre for Women Studies together with articles I write, letters to government ministers regarding social justice, letters to Mr. Justice Barr concerning the John Carthy, https://http://www.justice.ie ›What We Do › Crime & Law Enforcement › Tribunals about whom I feel very strongly. John Carthy coincidentally was in the same class as a fellow student in the Disabilities room and my concern is that John had a manic depression (like me) mental health diagnosis and I have experience of the situations that arise. I personally link drug addiction; mental illness; alcoholism as very close relatives. The cause and the programme is the approach that I would suggest. When I was more mobile (mobility problems due to 100% deafness in my right ear post accident) I attended the evening lectures on these topics. The issue is the competitive factor. Linkages are required. Perhaps the time has changed towards what is consensual. It is my humble wish (and of the other participants who are in contact with me) that the Government decide to re-introduce the concept of the Trinity Horizon Project via FAS, www.fas.ie/ as originally planned. Unfortunately,they deemed it too costly.

The Centre for Women Studies has asked me to sit on the panel relating to mental health. The National Flexi Work-Plan.http://www.tara.tcd.ie/… is EU funded and supported by Aware, ICTU, IBEC, Trinity, Age Action. Of particular concern to me presently is genetic profiling and I have raised this at a prior meeting. I have also raised the issue that how are we expected to make employers aware of mental health issues when the academics in our elite Universities do not ‘want’ to understand.

Certain lecturers expressly said to me that they value my input at lectures and tutorials. It was Sean Barrett that was the first person that roused in me that ‘voice’ that allowed me to say I don’t agree. Until then I was most intimidated. Education is the only route out of disabilities so profound as mental health and traumatic brain injury and there are two quotes which I will share with you that give me
hope.

Gandhi

‘You have to be the change you want to see’

‘I am going to live as if I am going to die tomorrow and learn as if I
am going to learn for the rest of my life.

And

Yes, I know I can make a contribution. I also know unless I had picked up that random form in the Aware magazine and applied for the Trinity Horizon project I would rest
in an abyss, most likely in assisted living or residential care.

Trinity hardened me; stimulated my mind – the kind of mind that Lord Byron described as a ‘boiling mind’. It gave me an identity: I was free to say I am Mentally Ill, I sustained a Traumatic Brain Injury that was deemed near fatal by the medical profession but the bastions of Academia are opening up to us. The irony being of course that many of the figure heads that attract tourists were products of the same mental illness. Jonathan Swift, had Meningers as I have but people labeled it mentally ill whereas I can say it was per consequence of my brain injury. Let me also say I am in contact with most of the first 15 from the Trinity Horizon Research project and when my health would falter; their
fear would make me try to keep going. People who volunteer like we did and who have a diagnosis of Depression are committed to ensuring a cure, a method of dealing with it, not just for us but our fellow sufferers. The programme ‘I was You’ recently is so poignant to each of us because we feel that is where we are going.

I completed the first essay ‘Can mental illness be seen as a form of Social Deviance’. I realized that the lever arch file (the negotiation process instigated by the Disabilities Department involving the counselling services and others) that resulted in the meeting that brought about your letter, did not convey understanding either of me or the intellectual, physical and emotional difficulties I have. Tenia Kalinok the psychologist understood and she attended the meeting. She has now left Trinity counselling to work overseas. It has been said about your letter that it was apparent Trinity just wanted to pacify me with a token degree. I have mulled this over now and concur with this opinion.

The handling of this matter has been most distressing. I clearly established with Disabilities representative Declan Treanor that I was interested in establishing a precedent so that other students with health complications would be treated in an appropriate manner. If anyone chooses to read the correspondence that must be on file – given that a meeting was held – it clearly states the position.

Trinity dealt with my situation by establishing an Invisible Wall like the Chinese Wall in Corporate Finance departments. I am so numb from oblivion that the motive of precedent would have been suffice for me to keep fighting.

The National Disability Authority is adjacent to where I live. I noted that Professor Holton, was representing Trinity College Dublin on the Mental Health Advisory Committee on the 23rd of October 2003. I became very distressed. I wrote to him, enclosing the essay and the letter that is attached. The next meeting is in December 2003.

To conclude PART I:

I returned from the cardiologist the other day. You see the denial of me is so severe now that I am almost phobic. I cannot socialize with friends – I have limited energy now; I cannot travel because of the fear of a what I call ‘drop dead’ exhaustion. Social Justice is my prime concern and all I can do to achieve that is write and think but people scorn this because it is not compliant with their system of regulation. The reason I understand is that in my former life pre TBI and age 32 that was me– I traded currencies, I studied law, I worked as a PA, I organized conferences for the World Bank in Zimbabwe, I represented the Mashonaland Irish Association https://www.mashonalandirish.com  through the auspices of the Department of Foreign Affairs for the visit of President Mary Robinson. I know.

The unprofessional way I was dismissed from Trinity College Dublin and the irrelevance placed on the neuro-psychological findings which involved over 8 hours in two sittings of examination, precious time because of the injuries I have sustained and the implications of dementia or alzheimers in the future. It is for this reason I feel I have a duty and must make representation to Academia. I ask the question are the EU paying too much and the reality is that there is just tokenism. I ask that Academia in Trinity College Dublin move forward to embrace change and include people who have talents and can make valuable
contributions

Michelle Clarke
17th November 2003

March 2015 personal reflection

Idealism, naivety are the words that come to mind. It is my intention to
continue as an activist for people in are vulnerable particularly focused on
mental health with particular understanding of manic depression, anxiety and
suicide. Parallel will be my interest in the advancement of neuro-psychiatry
with particular interest in the vast potential of neuroscience. I will continue
to promote the importance of Third Level education for people with disabilities
and in particular for people who have mental health issues or neurological
conditions including Traumatic Brain Injury. Structure and system is essential
to the core being, especially people so afflicted. University provides this,
education facilitates contribution to society.



 

PART II (Unlike the foregoing which has been amended to reflect 12 years since its submission, I have decided to include the Essay as completed at the time and submitted to Professor McAleese).

CAN MENTAL ILLNESS BE UNDERSTOOD AS A FORM OF SOCIAL DEVIANCE?

Written by: Michelle Clarke- September 2003 (Hard copy available on request which contains footnotes).

Mental illness must be first defined in the context of legislation.-1-  Account is required of the predominantly medical input and the challenge that is faced by Sociologists and other disciplines. It is the biomedical model that has made such an impact on our cultural ideas about the body. The body is determined to be well or ill.-2- This in turn reflects the attitudes and beliefs of people. History reflects its assumptions to interpretations of mental illness and these interpretations prove valid for some people still. Bio-medicine looks to the body and separates other aspects of the human being.-3- Herein lies the conflict necessary to invoke challenge and bring about change. The body is predominant: social, psychological and behavioural factors of the illness stand apart. The illness is pathologised and the disease is allocated to some part of the body (physical reductionism). -4- The Body is seen as the object of regime and control (Foucault, 1979).

This essay will review the historical social construction of mental illness – the pathologised version as enacted by legislation. It will review the myth imbibed by capitalism and science to the stigmatized illness that presently exists. I review the impact of fear as the powerful hidden component. Challenge exists and the entry of sociologists like Comte, Durkheim, Weber, Simmel, to the Chicago School in 1924 like Goffman are discussed in terms of their approach to Deviance. The introduction of Social Movements in line with concept of civil rights in the 1960’s and taking hold in the UK from the 1980’s onwards. For the first time, we saw the opportunity for those designated ‘mentally’ ill to become stakeholders in their own future. The stage where the person who was once the patient (inmate) can refer to themselves as ‘survivor of mental illness’ or just survivor. Children, Education, Amnesty International, the United Nations, the EU and their Quality of Life research programmes are essential to provide the empowerment for the mentally ill to engage and disengage (with the understanding of people). This is vital. Only could those with mental illness have been so poorly treated and disregarded, if people conjured them as ‘deviant’ and not worth input.

Historical Social Construction of Mental illness – the assumptions
The ‘Struggle against Psychiatry’ has a long history. In 1620, the House of Lords received the ‘Petition of the Poor Distracted People in the House of Bedlam’ – the complaint was against inhumane treatment to the inmates. In 1845, the ‘Alleged Lunatics’ Friends Society was formed by ex-patients (Mind, 2003).-5-

The Middle Ages, saw the disappearance of leprosy in the Western World. Between the High Middle Ages and the end of the Crusades, leprosariums multiplied in the cities of Europe. The 17th century saw the creation of the houses of confinement established in Paris and other cities. Ironically, the Great Confinement made the human being – a social being and identity, subject to classification. It would have been economically viable to use the vacated buildings and to use them for the purpose of those held to be deviant, (Foucault,1967).

This period coincided with birth of Capitalism. Power and vanity became the new driving force. In England, the merchant class engaged in speculative ventures – those expectations driven by financial motivation involving commerce with emphasis on the emotions: fear and hope. Core to commerce is competition, envy and avarice and this has a price. The Renaissance period was the time of growth in individualism and this can incubate despotism. A schism arose in the Church dividing the Catholic Church and the Protestant Church.-6- The protestant work ethic, accumulation of capital, and a belief in a pre-destination created a suitable ethos to ignite in people the motivation required to embed Capitalism and class structure (Foucault, 1967: 74)

Mythology origin –Pathologised-Capitalism-Science

‘Suddenly, in a few years in the middle of the 18th century, a fear arose – a fear formulated in medical terms but animated, basically, by a moral myth’.
(Foucault, 1967: 192)

People were in ‘dread’ of a mysterious disease that spread from the houses of confinement that would soon threaten the cities. The disease became pathologised – fears, hallucinations, absent-mindedness all became identifiable symptoms.-7- (The symptoms in the footnote need to be seen in the context of what the Mental Health Act 2001 provides today). (Foucault, 1967: 199). Unreason and mental illness became intermingled. Unreason involves real fear. ‘Dread’ and the implications of fear compounded with the shame, stigma and ‘panopticism’ ensured segregation. Power and control enforce the dogma.

Contradiction and Challenge:-8-
Madness began to invoke thought. It became an issue of raising ‘the original truth’ but rather than it remaining hidden, this truth could ‘hang’ in history forever….This endorsed fear for some, both sides of the divide, but for different motives and different reasons. Fear and its internal impact and method of control and containment are hidden topics for discussion. The inference is weakness, the reality is fear can be used to control the vulnerable. Fear is pervasive in its implications.-9-

‘The truth of madness is what madness is…What madness is, is a form of vision that destroys itself by its own choice of oblivion in the face of existing forms of social tactics and strategy’ (Cooper, D. in Foucault, 1967: Intro)

The Reality is: Madness fascinates: The question stands – Is it madness or is it Vision?
‘It is of little importance on exactly which day in the autumn of 1888, Nietzche went mad for good, and after which his texts no longer afford philosophy but psychiatry: All of them, including the postcard to Strindberg, belong to Nietzche, And all are related to the Birth of Tragedy’. Our view of Nietzche is what he gave and continues to give to the Modern World’ (Blum, 273).

Sociologists’ Definition – Deviance:

‘Deviance always refers to conduct that is in violation of the rules
constructed by a given society or group. In other words, the concept of deviance implies a moral difference. It refers to the refusal or perhaps inability of an individual or group to abide by the moral norms that prevail in the social context in question’
(Berger and Berger, 1972: 305)

The group have defined the rules but the outsider remains outside looking in.-10- The outsider is the source of much speculation, scientific study and theorizing. The question is why does he not want to comply with societal rules?-11-

Sociology and its Origins
Sociology arose in the 19th century.-12- The basics of sociology related to the discovery of the laws of social order and the methodology required to maintain such order. (Berger, 1972; Berger, 1972)

Durkheim (1858-1917) understood deviance in terms of the functioning of society and deemed it preferable to study the society as distinct from individuals. The conduct of a person has categorized them in the minds of others. They are deviant and can be placed in a sub-category thereafter. In his book, Division of Labour, Durkheim highlighted the need for solidarity as people have an inherent need to belong. He wrote of the evolution from the basic operating mechanical society to the more organic society. Durkheim also researched and wrote ‘The Rules of Sociological Society’ in which he established the identity of sociology as distinct from psychological facts. Social facts represent ‘things’ – the approach is objective. (Berger, 1972; Berger, 1972).

Functionalism is the model applied by Durkheim and further progressed by Talcott Parsons in the US. Functionalism is closely applied to the medical model that promotes patient compliance and the bureaucratic structure to the services provided. Illness is seen as a social deviance when social expectations and norms are not achieved. Illness is an unnatural state hence the imperative function is to alleviate the person from it as quickly as possible. The assumption stands that stigma, shame and vulnerability pertain to many illnesses. Functionalists view health as a social commodity; a resource that is essential for individual achievement and the smooth performance of society (Annadale, 1998:10). The medical model is the Institution for Social Control.

Durkheim established views on Suicide and stated that this method of self-destruction was not only a personal tragedy but his findings were that it was a sociological consequence to which one is integrated in society – rare among married people, rarer in a more closely knit religious establishments and more frequent when rapid social change disrupts the social fabric. Social connectedness matters to our life in a profound way. Social networks reinforce healthy norms (Putnam, 2000).

Merton’s work has been productive in that it links with Durkheim’s concept of anomie and the analysis of social class. There have been investigations that link certain class positions to mental illness.

Weber examined the role of ideas in history; Marx focused on the economic aspects. Weber and Durkheim both reviewed the impact of Religion. Weber wrote on ‘The Protestant Ethic and the Spirit of Capitalism. It was Georg Simmel who reviewed the role of the Stranger – the dyads and triads. Simmel sought to establish ‘a formal sociology’. These sociologists are European.-13-

Goffman links back to the Chicago School of the 1920’s – America.-14-
Deviance is measured against a perception as to what is reality. The perception of reality is that defined by Society. Perceptions differ, they change. Both normality and deviance are important components of ‘reality’. One must be aware that Society is protective against challenges as to how they define reality:-15-

‘The total institution is a social hybrid, part residential, part community, part formal organization, there in lies its special sociological interest’ (Goffman, 1968: 22)

Goffman engaged with the concept of symbolic interactionism. To Goffman, mental hospitals and prisons are ‘total institutions’. Stigma looks at how people actually cope with ‘spoilt identities’. He exhibits a strong feeling of compassion with the victims of negative ‘social designations’. (Goffman: 1961: 22)

Following the trend set by Mills and Goffman, ‘labelling theory’ emerged. Howard Becker is the most well known representative of this new school. It creates a platform for a hierarchy to develop permitting different levels of authority. It is about distinguishing the social worker from the sociologist, from the psychiatrist or the law enforcement officer from the Doctor. It is important to note that what is called deviant today may be deemed normal in the future.

Another aspect to consider about Deviance is that it is understood as simply one way in which people define a situation. It’s ‘reality’ depends upon the power of the people who do the defining to impose their definition upon others.-16-(Goffman, 1961).

Stigmatization in the context of Mental Illness ensures it is referred to as deviant – the modus operandi is a process which one group of people inflicts upon another. The definition will ‘stick’, depending upon the power of the definers. In that case, those who are thus defined, the stigmatized will have to come to terms both socially and psychologically with the ‘spoilt identity’.-17-

CHALLENGE TO SOCIOLOGISTS:-18-

Medicalisation dictates legislation. The 1945 Mental Health Act-19- was only altered in 2001 with much grassroots activity of social movements and charities at a variety of levels. The issue of Rights for the mentally ill remains in limbo in Ireland. However, social movements are in existence.

Social Movements – Nick Crossley
‘Social movements can be viewed as collective enterprises seeking to establish a new order of life…The career of a social movement depicts the emergence of a new order of life.
(Blumer 1969: 99)-20-

Contention Humanities versus Science – US Sociological View 1974
People Question – Can humanity survive with science so prevalent? Sociologists and other social scientists are divided in opinion as to how to best position themselves to address the science versus the humanities issue in the 20th century. The major challenges concern proceeding with research under subsidies from those in power or should they only be investigators committed solely to their own humanist goals. Can they merge both together was the issue? (McClung Lee, 1973)-21-. The reality is that if science provides the genetic proof, it still stands that triggers and environmental factors play a large part in mental illness.

Education – the key factor to effect change: Multiple intelligences exist yet the school curriculum is weighted against non scientific approach students.

Bourdieu defines the sociology of education ‘specifically in terms of its role in understanding; the contribution made by the education system to the reproduction of the structure of power relationships and symbolic relationships between classes’. (Banks, O, 1968:115)

View of Education – US 1974:

‘Students caught up willingly in the regimenting routines of such specialized trade schools and college as those of business, engineering and military, appear to be heedless to their dehumanization’ (McClung Lee, 1974 pg. 1)-22-

And

‘Our educational procedures are more often geared to the development of believers and technicians rather than independent investigators and thinkers
the mass culture that pervades’ (McClung Lee, 1974: 67)

Representation 1980’s: the approach was more that of a ‘consumerist’ for the patient as distinct from service users or survivor.

The objective is to create social inclusion for people diagnosed with a mental health problem.

Nottingham Advocacy Group was one of the first established in 1986. The movement was towards Survivors speaking out, having a voice and challenging false conceptions perpetuated through mythology and ignorance.

A forward thinking psychiatrist and his client – Dr. Anthony Clare, St. Patrick’s Hospital, Dublin and Spike Milligan, Writer, Comedian with a Manic Depression diagnosis, worked in conjunction to produce a book to provide evidence from both sides. The comparison was drawn that both Cancer and Mental illness are pathologised but the reaction is most likely one of shame in relation to depression, even though a severe depression is life-threatening illness. (Clare, Milligan, 1993).-23-

‘Images of madness in our culture make it starkly clear that it is best avoided or denied – not just because the experience can be alarming, but because it is hard to see oneself simultaneously as ‘crazy’ and as a valid person with a liveable future’ (Sayce, 2002: 8)-24-

‘It addresses one central question: how, and on what basis, do we move beyond the physical de-segregation of hospital closure programmes towards the chance of full participation in social and economic life’. (Sayce, 2002)-25-

Why penalize people who cannot work at 100% range or even a 50% range?-26- Cordis, cordis.europa.eu/ an arm of the EU is currently researching Quality of Life perspectives.-27- Demographics may cause policy makers to change their attitudes and view people as potential (albeit limited) contributors to taxation.

Empowerment and mental health – the need for ‘Academics with Attitude’ .
This is a movement of ‘passive recipients’ to ‘active subjects’. The approach is to challenge the way we think about ‘mental illness’ mental health and what it means to live with madness. -28-(Barnes, 2001; bowl; 2001:). This is about Changing Attitudes. Mind in the UK run successful campaigns like 1 in 4, with descriptive footage of a severely depressed person. These are areas that need consideration. Essential is the use of the internet and system of email both for self-knowledge and innovative type work consistent with ‘diagnosis’.

Points to realistically consider:
Integration implies the individual will fit in with the system
The person has to change. Inclusion means that system itself will develop self-criticism; acknowledge the way in which it excludes and denies access; and dismantle barriers (Shakespeare 1997 in Sayce 31). -29- Anxiety – Valium, Librium – the wonder drugs-30- of the 1960’s are addictive. Consultants are afraid of insurance actions so are much more controlled in what they prescribe. There is no alternative now for the patient with anxiety i.e. except cigarettes/alcohol. Public policy is to prevent smoking in public places. Both cigarettes and tranquilizers are being restricted at the same time. This has implications for increased intake of alcohol. Mental illness also must be described as a physical illness. There is a need to have the service user as a stakeholder in policy making.-31-

Power of Language – Control
‘Language is itself a site of struggle and one of the purposes of user or survivor movements is to reclaim the right to define and name their own experiences’.-32-

Perspective
‘The emphasis on science is important. First it implies that the origin of mental illness and the role of intervention can be studied using the methods of observation and logical inference that form the basis of natural science. As such it is based on ‘fact’, not value, and its definition is seen as independent of Culture or social context.-33- This has both a political and organizational implications. It provides justification for the separation of medicine as a discipline and the retention of power over defining and treating mental illness outside political and popular control……Medicine has a non precise definition .

Reduction of stigma and discrimination is starting to appear high on the public policy agenda in a number of countries. The Australian Government have a major Education programme in place. The New Zealand government have adopted a programme based on studies into other marginalized groups e.g. HIV/Aids.

More Enlightened approach – World Perspective
The Universal Declaration of Human Rights encompasses
civil, political, economic and cultural rights.-34-

Community care is deemed more humane than inpatient stays. Ireland, Israel, Netherlands and Spain have 80-90% of the beds in psychiatric hospitals, France, Germany and Japan have 60-75% occupancy in psychiatric hospitals. The difference is found in Australia, Canada and the USA at 40%. (World Health Organisation page 17)

Amnesty International Ireland www.amnesty.ie/mentalhealth. Sociologically challenges Ireland’s treatment of the mentally ill. (The News on mental health issues from around the world) reports:-)

‘The support for children with, or at risk of mental health from successive Irish governments has not been adequate. The Amnesty publication, Mental Health – the Neglected Quarter, has as its objectives to increase awareness that children’s mental health is a human rights issue, to place this fact firmly before Government, and to lobby much needed reform in Government policy, practice and legislation (Sean Love, Director of Amnesty’s Irish Section).-35-

Gender issues/cultural issues – social factors:
Mental illness must be about multi-disciplinary teams. Psychiatrists opened up to the inclusion of psychology over the past 20 years and it is stated that if trigger events can be limited in a person susceptible to mental illness, and particularly after one event only, it is probable that they will avoid major mental health issues (Aware lecture 2003).www.aware.ie.  75% of those who commit suicide are men.-36- Black men have above average admittance in to psychiatric hospital in the UK and also to high security areas. Most divorces and separations are started by women and fathers tend to lose contact with their children. There is growing evidence that unemployment has an impact on mental. These are social issues impacting on family structure and society: http//www.mind.org/Information/Factsheets/Men/.

THE WAY FORWARD (Denial, Stigma, Shame, Education, Multi-disciplinary teams, Respect for difference)

Education is core to understanding and change.
‘The traditional conceptual framework in the subject is that of functionalism, and derives primarily from the writings of the French sociologist Emile Durkheim. The functionalist approach, as Durkheim used it, is to seek for the social function performed by an institution; that is for the part played by the institution in the promotion and maintenance of social cohesion and social unity’. (page etc).

Durkheim referred to the ‘socialization of the young generation’. He sought to imbibe the young generation with values and certain intellectual and physical skills.-37-

The Bright Futures Initiative –
In 1997, the Mental Health Organisation in the UK undertook a major study into the mental health of children and young people. They reviewed the requirements for the emotional and healthy development of children. The 1999 reports Bright Futures was published. Factors that cause children to be susceptible include poverty, poor housing, parental conflict, parental psychiatric problems and abuse.-38- It acknowledges the importance of early intervention. Other reports include The Mental Health of Young Offenders, August 2002 and the Mental Health of Looked After Children, August 2002. http://www.mentalhealth.org.uk/page.cfm?pagecode=PIBF -39-

Dr. Fernandez (Amnesty Member),-40- states the need to distinguish between ‘’mental health problems’’ induced by homelessness and ‘’mental illness’’ that may be a factor in becoming or remaining homeless (Amnesty International, 2003: 17). Psychiatric and rehabilitative services but with limited funding are provided at St. Brendan’s Psychiatric Hospital. The main objective is to ‘preserve and regain social function’. The separation from the rest of society in large institutions only ensures exclusion.-41-

IRELAND – Equality and the system of education are formally challenged. It is not inclusive. Is there a link to Mental Illness! Is the scope of the curriculum broad enough?

4500 are now hospitalized in psychiatric hospitals in Ireland. This has reduced from over 21,000 in 1958. By the 1980’s, institutions were costing large sums of money and government policy sought alternatives. Market forces determined the 1980’s de-institutionalisation policies.-42- In the year 2000, admissions were over 20,000 however the issue to be concerned about is that 70% of these were re-admissions. This speaks volumes about the recurrent nature.-43- Dr. Kennedy from Central Mental Hospital in a presentation made a point of the differentiation between those problems that were social i.e. over 80% and those that were psychiatric.-44-

‘To speak of the unspeakable is the beginning of action’ (Millett, 1994)-45-
Who is willing to listen, to hear, to activate change? The Irish psychiatric policy is based on the consumer model and thus adopted by the social movement organizations e.g. Aware and Schizophrenia Ireland. The approach is Top-Down as distinct from user-led action.

‘It is possible to propose a theoretical framework which moves the sociological perspective on from limitations inherent in other sociological traditions within the sociology of health and illness literature, such as psychiatry as a social system (Foucault 1965), or the deviance or the Marxian approaches of Scheff (1999 or Scull (1979 respectively‘ (Speed, E, 2002, 64).  Irish peculiarities mean the model requires adaptation.

Schizophrenia Ireland was set up in 1981. http://www.sirl.ie/other/repository_docs/13.pdf -46- Aware, the voluntary organization was established in 1985.  Aware Ireland, Sanewww.sane.org.uk in the UK and NAMI https://www.nami.org/ in America support the biological basis of mental ‘illness’. Aware is involved in the ‘promotion of research into biological, psychological and social aspects of Depression’ (Aware, 2001).-47- The Minister of Health has put in place an appointed study group to review analytically psychiatric services and community based service (Foreward iii) is now in place.

‘There has been a lack of any concerted mental health service users’ movement within the Republic of Ireland. Mental Health service users’ movements have a marked orientation towards strategies of empowerment and the provision of peer advocacy and support mental health service users’ (Speede, 2002). This is only acceptable if the objective is to change educational policy and introduce multi-disciplinary teams to work in the best interests of the service-user. If this occurs and with the distinct advantage of the internet, survivors can become empowered.

Research – What do we know? What does the future hold?

1997 The Trinity Horizon Project of the Centre of Women Studies covered a period of 4 years and developed a pro-type training and counseling programme for the women recovering from depression to facilitate their re-entry to the workplace. The research was carried out in collaboration with Aware, IBEC, ICTU and FAS.

The stance was from the humanitarian and social perspective. This was aimed at creating survivors. It was concerned with confronting the hidden secret associated with mental illness, dealing with the stigma that pertained and to emphasize just how under-resourced mental health services are. Funds were provided by the EU. A conference was held by the Trinity Horizon project – titled Mental Health and the Workplace: Challenges and Opportunites. It had access to transnational models – this provided a cross cultural dimension. Norbert Tietz, Director, EX+JOB in Wunstorf, Germany.

Immediately receptive is the term social firm. The firm was based on a philosophy of work and part of this was about integration of the participants with the public. Work experience included bar/restaurant work open to the public, fridge recycling plant, used children’s clothes shops, furniture shop and a music shop. The innovation of work came from the community as a whole in collaboration with the psychiatric hospital. The re-cycling dimension proved very successful. It appealed on the environmentally friendly factor. German companies must employ 6% of people with disabilities. If they choose not to pay, they must pay and fine and the money is paid into a fund for people with disabilities.

Professor McKeon, Psychiatrist of St. Patrick’s hospital and founding member of Aware reiterated that people with mental health difficulties, especially those with depression, make excellent employees. If anything, he stressed that this group with their over-anxiety to do well are exemplary employees. ‘Their exaggerated sense of responsibility and loyalty, traits which sometimes contribute to their difficulties, are positive elements for an employer. They are the first at work and have a commitment to any task they undertake. In dealing with their illness, they have already proven their ability to face and overcome difficulties and demonstrated their tenacity and courage’ (Trinity Horizon Project, Centre for Women Studies, 2000: viii)-48-

Yet, such a daring programme proved too expensive for the NRB to undertake. The NRB was subsequently subsumed into FAS – no rehabilitative programme as per the research was in put place yet. In fact, community employment which provided a meager alternative, but an alternative form of rehabilitation is being drastically cut back by Government policy.

CONCLUSION

National Policy framework – stakeholders – Survivors. Rights based Mental Health legislation is needed. Expenditure in psychiatric services has been reduced since 1976 by 20%. Mental illness is about social implications, coping strategies, psychological services and engaging with denial, particularly within the family context.-49- Power and control needs to be monitored.-50- Mental illness merits a consensual approach if people are to be integrated in society. Social workers need to interact with sociologists, psychologists, psychiatrists, educationalists, and most important in line with the wisdom of Carl Jung, Psychiatrist, Psychologist – they must involve the patient. -51-The Trinity Horizon Research proved too costly an approach but a new direction and approach is in place the National Flexi-Work Partnership Work-Life Balance Project

Comte named a new dimension called sociology; Durkheim elaborated and defined society as an integrated whole; Weber, shared Durkheim’s interest in religions and structure but also was concerned with ideals; and Simmel spoke of the ‘Stranger’. The intervening years saw institutionalization, medicalisation, of people who are ‘Different’. Why should an idealist be different, there might be a latent talent, that is inhibited by structure yet innovation lies there untapped. The challenge rests with Education and incorporation of a broader syllabus, to the Universities to take in hand those non-conformists and educate them and add the dimension to their education,-52- and the education of other students. People are mental health survivors but they must be given a chance. Denial, stigma, shame, must be removed and if it takes the conflict of referring to a person as socially deviant, for the reaction to come – ‘but no you are not in horror’. This is the step forward to dealing with denial. This is reality brought about by fear that no-one cares to acknowledge – hence the suicides are dismissed in shame, in silence, in fear. The medical profession live in fear that they too ‘will break the threshold’ that applies to every human being. This can be intuitively sensed from them. Sociologists need to take stock of the heritage of their founding fathers – perhaps it is time not to seek the credibility of being totally scientific and consider a more humanistic, open, consensual and interactive approach and work within multi-disciplinary teams with the objective of improving society.-53-

My parting comment is about Suicide. Dr. Kelly, (Iraq war 2003) leading scientist in search of nuclear arms in Iraq had the choice to conform to the status quo – to have his knuckles wrapped. He was an individual, deliberated, he knew the outcome if he conformed. Perhaps the issue is – could he have lived with his conscience? Durkheim reviewed suicide in this context. Yet our society does not see that people differ, a ‘Stranger’, -54-holding intuitive sentiments similar to what Shakespeare wrote in Hamlet ‘there is something rotten in the State of Denmark.

March 2015-Contextualised over a decade:  Deviance is deviance surely not as defined by mental health.  The shocking murder of Elaine O’Hara by a man who was socially deviant and so arrogant that he believed he could not be convicted and who was not going to use the defence of Insanity.
Dwyer did not plead insanity. He is found guilty of Murder. He preyed on a vulnerable woman called Elaine O’Hara who had been admitted to Ireland’s most elite psychiatric hospital, St Edmundsbury, on 14 occasions, under the most eminent of psychiatrists including Dr Anthony Clare. The paradox, the person with a mental illness the victim of society’s inability to provide for her mental health need and the murderer, the narcissist, the psychopath, devoid of conscience who saw vulnerable women as objects for his gratification. The question is will people abuse the term mental health and include him as mentally ill. I sincerely hope not. This social deviance stands apart from what mental illness is about. Again I say lets use the term Manic Depression again instead of the sanitised Bipolar. The manic applies to the high but also to the low.


Endnotes

1 An act to provide the involuntary admission to approved centres of persons suffering from mental disorders, to provide for the involuntary admission of such persons and, for the those purposes, to provide for the establishment of a Mental Health Commission and the appointment of Mental Health Commission tribunals and an Inspector of Mental Health Services, to repeal in part the Mental Treatment Act 1945 and to provide for related matters. “Mental Illness” means a state of mind of a person which affects the person’s thinking, perceiving, emotion and judgement and which seriously impairs the mental functions of the person to the extent that he or she requires care and medical treatment in his or her own interest or in the interest of other persons (Mental Health Act 2001)(return)
2 Distribution of wellness and illness throughout population does not fall in equal proportions (return)
3 Western medicine: science puts forward the belief that the body is separate from the mind and spirit (return)
4 Etiology is about identifying causes for each disease and scourcing cures. A machine capable of repair is the metaphor (return)
5 Exhibitions of inmates would be held and people paid to see those deemed ‘Mad’ (return)
6 Certain earlier sociologists particularly Durkheim and Weber, who carried out considerable research into different religions, linked it closely with the regimented system of values and rules relating to societies (return)
7 It was confinement of the debauched; the spendthrift fathers; prodigal sons; blasphemers, men who “seek to undo themselves”, libertines….One tenth of all the arrests were in Paris for the Hospital General concern “the insane”< “demented” men< individuals of “wandering mind” and persons who have become “completely mad” Foucault, 1967). No mention of alcohol or drugs. (return)
8 Lord Byron: Van Gogh; Churchill; Don Quioxte; Goya personalised mood distortion to black periods. Churchill referred to “Black Dog”. Aware St Patrick’s Hospital run a website titled “Black Dog” (return)
9 ‘Fear of fear refers to the anticipation of anxiety and thoughts that the mental and physical symptoms of anxiety will lead to worse consequences – a thought that in turn generates more anxiety. For example, mounting feelings of anxiety often make the patient anticipate that he or she will lose control and behave in a dis-inhibited way, or even become insane; while rapid heart action may lead the patient to expect a cardiac arrest or coronary thrombosis (Mathews A, Gelder M, Johnston D, 1981:5) (return)
10 Normal personality: how to define it? Perhaps – efficient self perception, realistic self-esteem and acceptance; voluntary control over behaviour; a true perception of the world; sustaining relationships and giving affection; self direction and productivity (Social psychology notes 2nd yr Business Economics and Social Studies Trinity notes (return)
11 Having been institutionalised and detache from society on numerous occasions, you are the outsider looking in (personal comment). Some explanations of psychosis use these exact words’ (return)
12 The name ‘Sociology’ was invented by Auguste Comete (1798-1857) – Philosophy (Positivism) (return)
13 Robert Merton sought to explain deviant behaviour in terms of social structure. He puts forward the idea that all forms of deviant behaviour ‘from differentials in the access to the success goals of a society by legitimate means….Deviance thus occurs as a result of discrepancy between the aspirations which society has socialised into its members and the way that society has provided for realising such aspirations. Merton uses the Durkheimian concept of anomie to refer to such a situation’. This reflects the goal oriented, materialistic strain in America (return)
14 Malfunction appears to determine deviance. ‘Agoraphobia is illness because one should not be afraid of open spaces. Homosexuality is illness because heterosexuality is the social norm. Divorce is illness because it signals failure of marriage….all these and many more have been said to be signs of mental illness (Berger 1963:6) (return)
15 It was then and still is my belief that any group of persons – prisoners, primitives, pilots, or patients – develop a life of their own that becomes meaningful, reasonable and normal once you get close to it, and that a good way to learn about any of these worlds is to submit oneself in the company of the members to the daily round of petty contingencies to which they are subject (Goffman) (return)
16 Mental illness/mood disorder is about lapses to weakness in moral and physical health – this inherent vulnerability is exploited (this includes family; employers, corporates, insurance companies, regimented bodies like education, the legal profession; the Church; non conformists too are not acceptable. Yet medical ethics was horrifically breached by Mengele with use of humans for scientific experiments (NAZI Germany) (return)
17 Victor Frankl (1962) Survivor from Auchwitz (Psychiatrist, Psychologist, Logotherapist, writer. ‘When we describe a responsible person we mean that in every area of his life he is able to meet the demands of this world’. Logotherapy concerns expanding the scope of visions (psychologically) for the patient. Here is the challenge to society. (return)
18 Comment from House of Lords UK: Quite evidently explanations for mental illness and institutionalisation were unclear to those engaged in scrutiny “As we get to know more about the complexity of the human mind, so we try to make our shades of responsibility more complext, and so I thing we get into deeper and deeper muddles Baroness Wootton of Abiger, House of Lords 1962 (return)
19 Irish 1945 Act was based on the earlier English legislation (return)
20 Examples include: Mind UK, (Aware, Grow, Irish Mental Health Advocacy in Ireland and Ireland Mental Health Association of Ireland etc) (return)
21 This was 1974. Now in the UK it is the medical profession who are linking to Humanities for medical conferences (return)
22 What about the social impact of science on man as a social creature? The most obvious is the impact of domestic gadgetry, healt-care facilities, urban and industrial structures and the ultimate threat of nuclear war (McClung Lee, 1974) (return)
23 Surprisingly I sought the implication and definition of fear in his book – there was none. Doctors have an issue with fear (return)
24 Denial is corrosive. Aware now operate a ‘Beat the Blues’ campaign in secondary schools. This is successful. Parents may have very fixed interpretations and refuse to encourage a child to engage at the expense of the child. (return)
25 This book includes several sources including the survivors together with lawyers, policy makers, activists, medical health professions. Primarily the research was completed in the US and UK in the late 1990’s. Reference is made to systems in Europe, Australia and New Zealand. (return)
26 Vincent Van Gogh. His pre-occupation was to give, not to receive financially. His paintings were sold after his death and amrketing applied to accumulate worth. The same applied to letters he wrote. He was socially oriented. (return)
27 Presently, the Centre for Women Studies in Trinity College Dublin are carrying out research which is part of the Equal Community Initiative and the European Social Fund. It involves a mental health advisory committee. University of Dublin; Aware: Age Action; IBEC; Congress of Trade Unions; FAS and mental health survivors will convene over the next two years. The June meeting was a bilateral meeting: Working party of employers and the Mental Health Advisory group including mental health survivors. The focus is National Flexi work – Work Life Balance. (return)
28 Marian Barnes is a member of National Health Action Zone evaluation team focusing on community involvement. (return)
29 ‘People who are seriously disadvantaged in society rarely have just single problems – they have multiple interlocking problems. They do not compete on a level playing field. Empowerment must address all their problems together if it is to be meaningful’. (Davy, 1999, 37) (return)
30 Drugs have side affects; muscle wastage ensures body weakness; anorexia/bulimia can be side affects related to mood disorder or just a manifestation of self-harm, vision, co-ordination, perception, judgment, attention deficits etc (return)
31 The Barr Tribunal (John Carthy RIP): Labeled a Manic Depressive. Somehow anxiety has been removed from language of mental health otherwise he would likely not have been shot dead by An Gardai Siochana. Anxiety drugs (Benzos) are now causing negative reporting as they are deemed too addictive and there are basically no alternatives. It could be said that the cigarettes were used to taunt John Carthy RIP, cigarettes could have calmed his anxiety. Many people go contrary to regulations and even legislation especially relating to drugs and alcohol to help them cope with stress, anxiety, depression. This is a social issue and was addressed by Dr Harry Kennedy (Psychiatrist) who has accommodation problems at the Central Mental Hospital. It is linked to crime. (return)
32 Mental Act of England and Wales defines ‘Mental Disorder’ as mental illness, personality disorder, severe mental impairment. (return)
33 Perhaps this should mean it is a component part of a spectrum that deals with those diagnosed mentally ill. A more equitable distribution of funds in terms of time input would be required. hroughout population does not fall in equal proportions (return)
34 All persons have the right to the best available mental health care, which shall be part of the health and social care system. MI Principle Amnesty Mental Health Report – the Neglected Quarter). (return)
35 Ireland ratified the UN Convention on Rights of the Child in 1992, whereby it undertook to provide a specialised mental health regime to identify, treat and protect children under 18 years or at risk of mental illness. http://www.mentalhealth.org.uk/page.cfm?pagecode=NENE (return)
36 The State in Ireland and the Church are prejudiced in regard to a person with mental illness. Denial applies. (return)
37 ‘The most sensible way to lower rates of depression and suicide is …to spread accurate information among the general public about what depression is’ Dr Fernandex (Amnesty) and St. Brendan’s Hospital; Breaking the Cycle of Depression; (Joe Griffin and Ivan Tyrrell), The European Studies Institute. http://www.clinical-depression.co.uk (return)
38 see 37 (return)
39 17th September 2003: Psychiatrist Dr Kay Redfield Jamieson (US psychiatrist, a manic depressive) is in Ireland. New breakthrough relating to the prediction of suicide is announced. It involves hospital, an MRI scan, a Pet scan. The question is how probable it is that suicidal people will proceed through the functional medical channel. (return)
40 Dr Fernandez – Psychiatrist, St Brendan’s Psychiatric hospital, Dublin (return)
41 Serious findings: 70% re-admission each year. This strongly indicates hostile social situations: alcoholism, marital conflict, drug addicts etc. Each psychiatric admission involves a review of cocktail medications and monitoring. New drugs, new side effects, new body hostility limitations and re-adjustment. Each hospital admission means there is possibly a new psychiatric label, the range is manic depression to borderline personality disorder to manic depression. It is important to note that many doctors in psychiatric are in temporary postings and often from overseas (return)
42 Driven by former Prime Minister Margaret Thatcher (Conservative Party) (return)
43 The social aspects, alcohol, drug abuse, family strife, lack of occupation to regain acceptance in a community. (return)
44 Irish Penal Reform Trust. Former President Ireland – Dr Mary Robinson dated December 2002 (return)
45 The Arts address the social issues. Jack Nicholson in One Flew over the Cuckoos Nest, and As Good as it Gets, drew considerable attention to institutional care and to obsessive compulsive disorder. A Beautiful Mind says so much more about Schizophrenia and brilliance. ‘Strangers’ can contribute. (return)
46 Interested patients, family members, professionals, advocates (return)
47 Similar stance by MHAI, Department of Health and Regional health boards (return) Education as distince from the workplace appealed to a number of ‘guinea pigs’ One student is accepted for her PhD in psychology; others opted for community projects in the arts. 48 (return)
49 This is real. It involves children; family court – referred to recently by a Judge as an Armageddon for children; the Catholic Church that acts without a cheecks and balances system provided by the State re people diagnosed with manic depression, schizophrenia. Proper education is essential. We are told that as many as one in four people will suffer from depression in their lifetime. (return)
50 Forfeiture of control of self, family affairs, the need of an ally as distinct from a carer to assuage the difference in personality and preent abusive use of power relations. Relatives seeking the advice from the medical team disempowers the individual. Mind – Respect campaign. Stigma reduced but inclusion is a different issue. Mental health provides no security for those within the Irish court system. The courts have power to seek discovery of documents in the context of divorce leaving the person with severe mental health problems discriminated against. The system is adversarial and damaging. The Annulment by the Catholic Church, a male dominated court again discriminates. (return)
51 Account must be taken that the stakeholder may be subject to health limitations that are greater at different times (return)
52 European social funds opened the gates in the 1990’s but a lack of understanding, prejudice, fear, shame, stigma resulted in people gaining access to Trinity College Dublin but health provisions not in place for crisis situations. Many students left without completing their degrees and more men than women (return)
53 Goya painted ‘the Madhouse’ ‘he must have experienced before that grovel of flesh in the void, that nakedness among bare walls, something related to a contemporary pathos; the symbolic tinsel that crowned the insane kings….left in view suppliant bodies, bodies vulnerable to chains and whips, which contradicted the delirium of the faces…The man in the tricorne is not made because he has stuck an old hat upon his nakedness…(Foucault 1967; 265) (return)
54 Perhaps Simmel perceived the Stranger as an individual – the outlier who would take the risk to restore an equilibrium(return)


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Certain background notes related to the preparation of this essay:

DENIAL: (Real: in context of essay)

‘All nationalists have the power of not seeing resemblances between similar sets of fact….The nationalist not only does not disapprove of atrocities committed by his own side, but he has a remarkable capacity for not even hearing about them…..In nationalist thought there are facts which are both true and untrue. Every nationalist is haunted by the belief that the past can be altered….Material facts are suppressed, dates altered, quotations removed from their context and doctored so as to change their meaning….Indifference to objective truth is encouraged by the sealing off of one part of the world from the other, which makes it harder and harder to discover what is happening…. If one harbors anywhere in one’s mind a nationalist loyalty or hatred, certain facts although in a sense know to be true, are inadmissible George Orwell, Notes on National in Denial Preface (Cohen, 2001)

‘Denial is transferred across generations and echoed in the wider political culture: if we deny reality, if we don’t feel the pain of what is happening in Bosnia or in the house next door, we don’t act….to change these realities Cohen, 2001: pg

Mentally ill and the Welfare State – the gaps that could be filled, if seen or called to public attention.

The Experience of Disability – ‘25 shillings in 1966’.
‘They reflect a much deeper problem of a distortion of the structure and the value-system of society itself. Achievement, productivity, vigour, health, and youth are admired to an extreme. Incapacity, non productiveness, slowness and old age are implicitly if not explicitly deplored. Such a system of values moulds and reinforces an elaborate social hierarchy…….It is possible to secure real gains for those who are disabled without calling for a reconstruction of society and schooling new attitudes to the entire population…..Stigma foreward.

The common factor is human relationships. ‘They realize how widespread are feelings of protectiveness, superiority, aloofness and even revulsion towards them. Ordinary people expect them to become passive and compliant dependants, an isolated category of the pitied who are thrust out of sight at home or in institutions. No wonder they write of the bitterness and frustration involved in playing the role of an invalid’….. Society has to realize that first and foremost we are people equally with non disabled.

The European alliance of homeless organizations FEANTSA notes www.feantsa.org/
‘Housing and homelessness are inseparable. Becoming homeless is generally the upshot of a series of life events that push some person into exclusion. But housing is often not their only problem: they also have health (lifestyle, sickness, dependency, etc), psychological and social problems (isolation, loss of self-confidence, depression etc) which mount up to fast-track homelessness. Unfortunately few countries take account of this.



 

PART III

https://www.irishhealth.com was a website in existence in 2003 and is still in existence. Health and the onset of Chronic Fatigue meant my interaction was through contribution to this health site. Unable to complete a second essay, it was my decision to include in the file folder to Professor McAleese a number of articles I had written in the period May 2003 to November 2003. As stated I would have retained a duplicate of the file folder I submitted but I cannot find it so I have accessed my computer files and will now include 8 pieces written by me. You will see that irishhealth.com links are still active. The views were entirely my own in 2003 and what is interesting about reading them now is that Stigma, Suicide, War, Mental Health, have seen little advancement for the positive. However, cigarettes under the direction of former Minister for Health James Reilly, Fine Gael, have significant warnings and ominous pictures to advise people, to educate them that smoking is not advisable.

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Michelle,
Thank you for your comment, which has now been reviewed by the Editor and has been posted on the relevant site discussion area.

— Original Message —

Great Reaction – Let’s Ban cigarettes
Societies are made up of the people who are the Givers and the Takers. In other words the Generous and the Selfish.

Human beings differ. Who shouts loudest? Sometimes I feel (as distinct from think) it is the selfish people.

Their behaviour often indicates more than what one expects. It can state their inferiority complex that necessitates them being heard, making the waiter most servile, unjust criticism; complaining about the food.

I fall under the psychiatric label. I don’t smoke mainly because I had severe asthma until I was 27. However, I suffer from acute anxiety so therefore I need BENZOS.

A Question for Readers to Ponder over?
Do many people recall going to a mass or reading the Bible?

Reflection is often a good pursuit i.e. if anxiety, is about destroy your life.

Fear, Anxiety, etc. are constantly referred to in the Bible etc. Then switch your mind to beads, the Orthodox use them, the Jews use them and we the Catholics use them. The Muslims adhere to habitual, repetitive religious practices also.

Back to cigarettes: I wonder how many people smoke to curtail their stress. The next point is if you know people who did smoke and then gave it up, do you recall how many extra stone some put on?

Stress and Anxiety can work very well for you in the productive work environment that measures peoples economic worth today……but what about me?…….the person who had a world at her feet in her twenties and was beholder to a large number of benzos by her 30’s. You see I tipped the balance.

Language is elusive. Depression is a word we can easily grasp these days but ANXIETY AND STRESS – they are somewhat hidden within the word depression.

The drugs now are not two but possibly one. Valium conjures up potential insurance claims as addictions become apparent. But what about the person who has the real stress who needs them?

Road rage; workplace stress; break down in marriages and social structure……not being empowered sufficiently at school level to follow a given path……yes these people have a need. Before anyone outright says no…….let them provide a sufficient mental health service, let them understand what it is to be in the smoking room in say the ramshackle psychiatric unit in Blanchardstown Hospital.

I suggest there is a need…..and there could be a high cost. We talk about cancer. What about mental health, heart disease per consequence, the number of suicides……80% of suicides now in the UK are young men under the age of 35.

We are not addressing these problems because we do not want to know.

Then what about eating and drinking? If smoking is like me twiddling my hair, a method of dealing with anxiety…….then there is going to have to be chocolate etc.

It scares me when economics dictates all. We need Ethics and a level of acceptance. What about those people who are elderly and who relish the pipe, cigar, cigarette in a public place so that they can see real live people as distinct from their friends in Coronation Street.

Just a few thoughts.

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No 2
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Date: Monday, August 25, 2003 9:24 AM

Michelle,
Thank you for your comment, which has now been reviewed by the Editor and has been posted on the relevant site discussion area.

— Original Message —

Dr. Neary and Obstetrics
I would ask people to consider the person and the behaviour.

Do we expect too much from our medical professionals?
Insurance shortly will be prohibitive and we will be unable to provide the services. This has serious implications.

I would suggest it is time that the cartel – high point criteria that applies to medicine be seriously reviewed. I agree with Noel Dempsey and the science route. Nursing degrees ought to permit the option of entry to medicine. Several of the nurses I know had wanted to study medicine but did not get the points.

If you break the cartel, supply and demand alters. The cost of the services reduce. Then the insurance will fall. We must also consider that if within a constitution, a system of checks and balances applies, the same ought to apply to the medical profession.

It must be remembered at all times doctors are human; they have one of the highest rates of suicide (nicely concealed) and this in itself states a non supportive system in times of crisis. It is my belief that doctors level of fear regarding depression etc. is suffice for them to exclude their own. i.e. Denial.

Reduce salaries; empower others to realise their ambitions and not necessarily on crazy high points.

For the people who witnessed what was going on……and this applies in Government; in Religious institutions; in schools, etc. I provide this quote. Try listening to people, if even to speak to a homeless person and just listen to what it is they have to say. My experience is that they often talk the language of children i.e. the truth

Confucious (Beween 4th-5th centuries)

‘To know what is right and not to do it is the worst cowardice’

There is an epidemic in this country….nobody acknowledges correspondence; nobody listens and hears; nobody goes ‘by the book’…… the parameters are there for the widening.

I suggest these people stand accountable. As a woman recently returning to Auschwitz remarked about a statue (the woman was revisiting for the first time her pilgrim path)…….those who don’t react are basically capitulating.

We need Ethics revived.

It is okay to say ‘I don’t know’. Medicine is the worst offender here. We are all actors on a stage but in some cases therein lies real danger.

Michelle

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No 3
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Subject: Message posted
Date: Friday, June 06, 2003 9:39 AM

Michelle,
Thank you for your comment, which has now been reviewed by the Editor and has been posted on the relevant site discussion area.

— Original Message —

SARS OLYMPIC TRAVEL BAN PARTIALLY OVERTURNED: Time is approaching, the Torch was lit and the journey to Ireland has begun.

This is the European Year of People with Disabilities – the objective is to challenge people to highlight the benefits of full integration for society as a whole.

Changing attitudes is one aspect but the breaking down of barriers and obstacles also needs attention.

The European Year of People with Disabilities (EYOD) is very much people driven. A budget of Euro 12 million was provided but mostly distributed to national level.

At a national level, more local stakeholders will be involved and this will stimulate awareness. It is hoped this new awareness will impact into policy objectives for equality for those with disabilities.

‘At the event opening in Athens, European Commissioner for Employment and Social Affairs, Anna Diamantopoulou talked about ‘invisible citizens’……One in four Europeans has a family member affected by a disability;only 4% have a colleague with a disability and only 2% know a disabled pupil at school. Europeans with a disability are less likely to have a job or a business or have a complete tertiary education. They are less likely to be ‘married’ (Social Agenda – European Commission Employment and Social Affairs April 2003 – free EU Office).

The EYPD has established a new framework. A number of major companies have volunteered to establish actions plans in favour of people with disabilities. These include Hewlett Packard; Volkswagen; Sony; Manpower and others.

The recruitment company Adecco has committed to placing 7,000 people with disabilities on the EU labour market during 2003. IBM has also made provision in line EYPD.

In Ireland, we need to remember that the Disabilities Bill has been delayed. However, it is important to remember that legislation fights discrimination.

There will be lots of fun and excitement with the participants, their families and friends but there will also be opportunities to compare how different countries look at Special Needs and Disabilities provision. I note in Spain, the University provides 3% of student places to people with disabilities.

Chinese Proverb:
‘The true miracle is not to fly in the air
Or to walk on the water
BUT TO WALK ON THE EARTH’

GOOD LUCK WITH THE OLYMPICS – ENJOY (Michelle)

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No 4
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Subject: Message posted
Date: Thursday, June 12, 2003 9:41 AM
Michelle,
Thank you for your comment, which has now been reviewed by the Editor and has been posted on the relevant site discussion area.

— Original Message —

Charged for being drunk and at A&E

Personally, I cannot understand why this is not in place. The health boards are losing money, the staff are stretched beyond reason, the waiting lists need serious attention and there are people who are purposely becoming drunk.

There is a word called Respect. This word can be used in terms of self-respect but there is also respect for others. I was rushed by ambulance to St. James’s recently. I commend all there for their effort. I had seen the RTE Prime Time programme and I was horrified.

There is a word called Shame. It has disappeared from our language otherwise we would respect ourselves, our families, people in general. The effort ought to be combined.

You get drunk – you are admitted to A&E – The person who takes your details should get work details, family etc. The bill for the ambulance which must be about 400 euros and the treatment by all concerned should be charged at full cost. The bill should be sent out say 10 days after the event to invoke shame. Also there should be something like the points system re driving with a hefty penalty.

It is time to stop the slip shod approach to administration. The internet was the research tool for the second world war and here we are not ‘pruning’ and seeking accountability from people for behaviour that is not acceptable.

Perhaps for breaches there should be community service.

QUOTE: ‘Addiction camouflages a vast inner emptiness, a gaping hole’
Carl Jung

Also……..Prince of Tides Film
‘There are no verdicts to childhood – only consequences and the bright freight of memory’

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No 5
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Subject: Message posted
Date: Sunday, May 04, 2003 8:32 AM

Michelle,
Thank you for your comment, which has now been reviewed by the Editor and has been posted on the relevant site discussion area.

— Original Message —

Forms – the maze

Michelle agrees with you. In the days of the email, I believe life has become incredibly complicated for the average individual. This is a true paradox.

Forms as far as I can see endorse the sociological perspective of Talcott Parsons circa (1950’s). Parsons created the hierarchical bureaucratic system theory. Given that it was a foundation process, it is acceptable. What is not clear is the way administration has clogged up the effectiveness.

We see today the Farmers walk in and look for what they are entitled to in some Government Office. Yet again, they make the news.

You get a licence, you go to the post office, you go to the hospital, you go for bloods…….nothing works efficiently. And now people are so afraid that someone will sue them, they don’t answer correspondence, enter details on files that might be discriminatory (say depression). What has happened? Who is thinking?

This creates a big monster that has lots of power. Always remember, there are many ways to gain control over or intimidate other people. You can be the secretary working for say two people. It is simple if one annoys you – each time he/she hands you something to do just put it to the bottom of the list.

Part of my medical condition is I cannot understand money. It has become increasingly worse so that now I must take an amount and hope people when asked to take the price of what I am buying are honest.

The last time I entered a depression (lasted nearly 2 years), I know that only for a friend of mine, who took me in hand and identified the problem, I could get nothing sorted out. This was the absolute opposite of my pre-accident days. This caused me to become so anxious and frustrated with myself. It was so bad that I avoided places like the revenue who said I had not paid my tax and that within 3 days ‘they were sending a truck to collect assets….they would break down the door’. I tried to explain – they would not listen. It is past but in my former self it would not have happened. Then of course, those who know you and worry for you, say leave it – let someone else fight the battles.

I know after this experience it is with difficulty that I enter a bank or deal with an official. For me, I have every sympathy with the kids on the street, those who beg because if my experience is anything to go by – it is a humbling encounter with bureaucracy that I avoid.

Goffman ought to be read. He writes about Asylums and us/them and Stigma.

‘Certainty is the sin of bigots, terrorists and pharisees –
Compassion makes us think we may be wrong’ unknown

Enjoy the Long Weekend

Some effective Think Tanks are required – a little bit of that military precision, with the Irish endorsed.

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No 6

Michelle,
Thank you for your comment, which has now been reviewed by the Editor and has been posted on the relevant site discussion area.

— Original Message —

Yet another group of people gathering together to make a plan for ‘Us’. I have encountered so much inability by those that represent the mentally ill to converse with ‘us’. The problem clearly is fear.

A programme was run by the Centre for Women Studies in Trinity in 1996 concerned with the re-integration of women and depression back into society. I was one of the first 15 selected. The research funded by Horizon 1997 for several years but the NRB (National Rehabilitation Board) found it to costly to implement.

Without it I could never have gone to Trinity College Dublin – the syllabus provided me with the necessary coping mechanisms but alas the inability of academia to meet the needs of those with disability particularly mental illness, and their inability to correspond and to consistently ignore your emails forces me to write and ask people to take on board the systems and representative organisations who exclude people especially people with mental illness or traumatic brain injury. We need an inclusive society.

Research by sociologists re. mental health should involve people who have had mental health problems on an equal footing. The question needs to be asked who decides what is to be researched? who funds it? what are the motives? The concept of the research making up the questions to my mind skews it. I of course may be wrong…….

Everyone has talents – a Platonic regimented approach to education does not invoke the best in people and is blatantly not suitable to young people who could be described as having say a sensitive nature.

I wrote to compliment an academic on a paper regarding rights for the like of ‘me’ and many times since trying to get an acknowledgement based on principle – it has been to no avail. This is ignorance and from the legal profession. I even raised it at a Fine Gael meeting on Crime. Charles Murray referred to the creation of the Underclass in America in the 1960’s – we are doing the same here. Mental illness is about stigma, shame, labels, limited if any health insurance is not paid for, Church hostility when marriage goes wrong. It is about an adversarial system that is penal to the person who is part of the revolving door of psychiatric.

People must wake up.

We are losing too many men to suicide. A child of 13 who had been raped at 10 is one of the latest to take her life. No one listens or cares as long as the presentation of the document for the meeting is acceptable. We are too far removed from reality.

Shame – it is absolutely a disgrace about the woman arrested and held for 10 hours re. the hoax calls.

We also must think about John Carthy. His crime to ask for a cigarette and to be shot dead.

In England they speak about Mental Health Survivors – we need to be talking Survivors here. In order to survive you need rehabilitation like the .

One final point. Why is alcoholism and drug addiction (illegal) not included with mental illness?.

A recent study shows that women enter mainly as depressives while men enter hospitals as alcoholics. Of course men are likely to have the large salaries etc. The link is very close between depression and alcohol. What skews this research?

It is coping strategies that people ought to be looking at.

Michelle

Quote:
Goethe
‘Treat people as if they are what they ought to be and YOU WILL HELP THEM BECOME WHAT THEY ARE CAPABLE OF BECOMING’

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No 7

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Subject: Message posted
Date: Tuesday, May 06, 2003 9:20 AM

Michelle,
Thank you for your comment, which has now been reviewed by the Editor and has been posted on the relevant site discussion area.

— Original Message —

Michelle responds to Annabel.

I absolutely agree with you. I was one of the people chosen for the Trinity Horizon Research Programme in 1996. The research concerned the re-integration of women who suffered depression back to the work environment. Towards the end of the programme we had discussions about obtaining work and possibly being ‘creative about our C.V.’s’. Most of the group of 15 could not produce a linear effect CV.

One point that is becoming quite apparent is the link between creativity and depression. Churchill who suffered from what he referred to ‘as his black dog’ openly referred to his solace in painting.

We had the opportunity of having Drama Classes with Michael Caven, Drama – Trinity College Dublin as part of our syllabus. At first we were not confident but in the end I must say that it proved a most satisfactory method of helping one cope with society and people when one is ‘under the weather’.

Drama for me was a coping skill. In fact when I met the psychologist by chance from the programme and I was running very scared of being in the divorce court room, she reminded me of drama…….I was able to step outside my sadness and pretend to be coping. I would have found it a very difficult life event if I had been undignified.

Back to Community employment.

It provided access for one woman into education, it provided access for another to art, another to drama, another working with MS (Multiple Sclerosis) support……I would say that this is a positive recommendation for a transition move from one situation to another.

I don’t understand as we face health problems, education problems, the arts provision reduction in funds (particularly as it draws in so many tourists and income to the country), that those economically motivated capitalists in Government cannot put an ‘economic’ value to social capital that is readily available and beneficial to the governmental areas they are encountering most problems with. Community employment has worked very well since it came into being in the early 1990’s. New Opportunites for Women, a Youth Programme, a health programme, an education programme has been funded by the EU and the outcome has been progress i.e. until today’s figures when unemployment has reached a three year high.

The recession only ceased in Ireland in 1994. The 1980’s recession in some academic circles is regarded as worse than the 1950’s. I know how bad it was because I emigrated with my husband. I also know in 1992 there was no change as we moved to Zimbabwe for him to work with John Sisk contractors. I returned in 1995 and my luck penny changed as I was accepted by the Trinity Horizon 1007 project and then into Trinity College Dublin as a BESS student. (This would not have been possibly with European Social funds).

I notice that country towns now maintain a very high standard and again community employment is the source.

Quote as it is Michelle. First Enjoy the Long Weekend

George Santayana
‘He who forgets the past is doomed to repeat it’

Let us not forget that preparations are presently being made re. the Disabilities Bill and its presentation in July. Community employment is most relevant in the context of people with disabilities, mental health problems and for those nearing retirement who feel more capable of doing a reduced amount of work – particularly those who keep parks maintained, towns tidy etc.

Michelle

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No 8
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Date: Wednesday, August 27, 2003 9:39 AM

Michelle,
Thank you for your comment, which has now been reviewed by the Editor and has been posted on the relevant site discussion area.

— Original Message —

As September approaches and as children return to school, it is time for parents, teachers, children themselves to consider situations that may occur while at school, namely bullying.

I read an excellent article in the Times last week by Louise Holden. An awareness education course is to be run in Rathmines about bullying. Declan Byrne based in Coolmine is involved and has written on this topic. He has knowledge of bullying situations over 30 years. His stated objective is to ‘Deter bullies before they do the emotional damage’. For all the attention they receive, remember bullies are in the minority group. However, parents need to prepare themselves to provide the children with coping strategies. They must empower their children. They must be aware and work in line with the teaching staff, the Board, the parents association.

Teachers need to be firm and make children aware about Tolerance and Respect. Teachers also need support from parents in this regard.

No child is born a bully, the behaviour develops. This relates to the early attempts of the child to assert his own control and the method he/she learns. If the child attains power, status and control by bullying other children, Byrne suggests that it takes a powerful argument to make the change.

This point is an interesting one and worth reflection in relation to bullying and life in general – PERCEPTION IS VITAL. ONE CHILD’S BANTER IS ANOTHER CHILD’S BULLYING.

Remember:
A person is a person and the behaviour is the behaviour.

Avoid the age old comments – Bullying will do no harm, it will harden the child up or it is part of life.

It does not. It is up to people to stop it thriving –
IT WEAKENS THE FOUNDATION OF A CIVILISED SOCIETY.

We have the knowledge; we have a changing society; children become adults and unchecked learned practices are taken from school; to the workplace; to their ability to identify those with ‘say poor health and in vulnerable positions’; to apply it to those institutions like those for the mentally ill; and those in care.

The one point people ought to consider is that we live a lot longer and it becomes more likely that we will end up living in Old People’s Homes and bullying applies across the people spectrum; when you are vulnerable and beholden, it is not easy to complain.

It is best to teach children to identify and cope young.

Some suggestions:
Role play bully coping strategy techniques with your child. There are plenty of books now about self-esteem and children.

Again, children are precious but to allow a child to victimise and bully is fair to nobody. It is worth thinking about the impact on their lives and others who they bullied. Some children survive but then there are others and the consequences manifest at a future time and can be fatal.

I think an Ethics focused class needs to be added to school curriculum to form a general value system and educate children in a more empathetic way.

Michelle Clarke.
Quote: E.F. Schumacher
‘Any intelligent fool can make things bigger, more complex, more violent.
It takes a touch of genius and a lot of courage to move in the opposite direction’

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Conclusion:

From: “Fergal Bowers”
To:
Subject: To Michelle from irishhealth.com
Date: Wednesday, March 05, 2003 2:07 PM


Michelle,

Thanks for your e-mail and indeed I do remember your contribution at the Aware lecture that I gave.

I will read through the material that you submitted to me. I may ask you later whether I can post it to irishhealth.com as a discussions topic in the YOUR VIEW area which is very popular. Let me read it first though and I will get back to you as soon as I am able.

Regards,

Fergal Bowers
Editor
irishhealth.com

Conclusion 7th April 2015

We are told we need closure. It was 17th November 2003 and I did not comply with the proposals suggested at Trinity College Dublin and submitted a file folder of the foregoing. I now call closure. I don’t need their BESS degree. More than anyone can possibly imagine, that is apart from others who shared the experience of being a student at Trinity College Dublin, education has empowered me, challenged me and given me coping strategies. Who knows? this week I read that Trinity College Dublin have MOOC’s ie online history. This may be the next step forward for me. It is centenary year in 2016. My grandfather Michael Comyn KC was a founder member of Sinn Fein and alongside Arthur Griffith they raised funds in Kansas, USA, in 1914. The Dictionary of Biography RIA details his life, but there is a lot more to add.

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Nietzche ‘He who has the why to live can bear almost any how’ multi morbidities: is there a better way?

Why such detail about my own personal health.  Traumatic brain injury TBI is an unknown.  It is about the Brain.  Today January 15th my fear of dementia advancing to Alzheimers is outlined and you will then no why each groundhog day I try to keep my brain active.  The report is by Neurosciencenews.com https://neurosciencenews.com/ dated 12th January 2016 and it is still about the great ‘unknown’.  Search: ‘Understanding the Link Between TBI and Alzheimer’s Disease’.  https://neurosciencenews.com/tau-tbi-alzheimers-3413/

“New Study from The University of Texas Medical Branch at Galveston fills an important gap in understanding the link between traumatic brain injury and neurodegenerative disorders such as Alzheimers disease…….”. https://som.utmb.edu/

“I had a black dog (Churchill); his name was Depression….” https://youtu.be/XiCrniLQGYc

Today 25th January 2018: Now diagnosed with cancer (see Breast Cancer articles Chapter 1 to 4): I believe that the system of medicine and treatment must change in the way that disruption applies to other fields.  I recommend this TedTalk and all doctors especially in primary care together with Ministers like Simon Harris and An Taoiseach, a doctor, Leo Varadkar, because disruption and a policy of Irish style leap-frog could end the crisis in A&E and trolleys in such a productive way.  People need to be more involved in their health at a personal level and if you want to be convinced please listen to this TedTalk.  Therein is hope for people and especially the elder lemons who have sufficient time on their hands to engage with technology and come up with options that may even become solutions.  http://www.ted.com/talks/eric_dishman_health_care_should_be_a_team_sport

29th May 2018: I have today listened to a talk on 60 minutes show (CNN via Google) regarding ECT.  I can recall the light referred to after my 15th session of ECT in 1998 and since then any depression has been dealt with by medications;  I received ECT in 1998 because no medication worked for a year or more.  http://www.cbsnews.com/news/ect-is-shock-therapy-making-a-comeback/

Introduction

8th March 2015.  Why today?  JJ would have been 94 today if he was alive.  Five years old and JJ entered my life as a significant person, in a time of turmoil and uncertainty.  He was a mentor but he was family.

Traumatic brain injury (TBI) in 1993 (as detailed) for me resulted in elucidation of my youth and my life before the horse-riding accident.  I was 32 years old and living in Zimbabwe and my life changed beyond all comprehension.  Floundering gradually it was routine and structure within the day that led to a new creativity most obviously through the written word and the need to conquer the helplessness  and fear that renders you a different person defined by brain damage.  For me my expectations must be that I will once again contribute to society and it is my intention to re-enter the work environment again. Disabilities have carved out that hand of cards for me and it is within my core being that a work ethic is the driving force to productively create that sense of purpose that creates a motivation for survival.

Anxiety is so often passed off as secondary to depression.  For me anxiety, fears,  phobias, obsessions, unchecked are a precursor to the depression and to the bipolar that are wholly detrimental to mental, emotional and physical health.  Zimbabwe only had one elderly neurosurgeon in 1993 who told me (although I don’t recall) to keep a diary and write everything down.  I have lever arch files, I have drawers full of copy books, I have diaries and then I have gone virtual.  Added to this are books myriads of them read but immediately forgotten but it is the power of the physical book that allows you to highlight, to write notes, to identify with others, to receive as gifts, to browse in book shops and of course one cannot exclude the selections to be found in charity shops.  The PC for me is the location and the location is my desk full of books that have re-assured me and given me purpose throughout two decades now.   But the head is a vacant space clawing out for information, for conversation, for books, for newspapers anything that will allow me to interact at a social level.

The interpretation of others most likely will not be shared by me because for me the significance is determined as a consequence of a horse riding accident in Zimbabwe in 1993, a fractured skull, no memories of same or little thereafter and what it is like to live in a Groundhog day routine enforced by circumstances.  22 years yet each day I awake deep in a mire of darkness not motivated by anything that memory can inspire.  It is only now that the decades pass and I am gaining a confidence based on what was once was such a different trajectory.  For me, thanks to tenacity and allegiance of my partner KT I have made it possible to engage with life, with people, with technology, with social media.  KT has the most remarkable memory and can write with a level of sarcasm and a scope beyond my wildest aspirations hence the quote captures me.  23rd November, a winter day, I was beaten down by sickness and stood at a bus-stop on Mespil Road and this man spoke to me….the rest is history.  It was the 46A bus.

Routine when you look at the health history which is detailed and attached would come and go but in 2003 it was the onset of Chronic Fatigue or absolute mental burnout that completely debilitated me and it lasted years.  Systematically KT enabled me to rebuild a structure and routine. KT became my advocate, my mentor, my tutor, my organiser.   Most incredibly he had the memory that was robbed from me with TBI.  It is for this reason the quotation by Lewis Carroll “It’s a poor sort of memory that only works backwards”  becomes the jest I rely on when I want to say life is not just about memory that there is something refreshing with my limitations because what is new cannot be stale and can be about hope.  Encaptured in each day by a routine that says engage ie 1 to 5 which starts with the rigid rota enforced by KT of : eat breakfast, take medications, get clothes, wash teeth, brush hair.  Its the only mechanism that ensures me I don’t forget.  More recently I have added to this list washing the dishes but thereafter it is a process of feeding the brain data.  Books newspapers and magazines had to be underlined and stored.  Fear predominated.  You read you recall nothing.  You know there is nothing you can remember at will because like a computer in fragmentation mode what goes in falls away to oblivion.

However what I did learn and it took me over a decade and only with the direction of KT that I could develop a system that would tap into some underlying character traits and could expose a creativity that would explore the knowledge I had gained before the riding accident and relate to current affairs albeit only within the day.  Add this to KT and between us we have shared a decade writing on an open publishing/citizen journalism site and to politicians and socially motivated people about current affairs making my bottomless well of no memory consolidated in a written format which was created by Google and a technology that for me is essential because it is adaptive to my special needs and to others for their explorations.

But what about 1993 to 2003, the foregoing is part of a process that paves the way to how I live today.  It is here that I introduce the spine of this project because I feel that there is a duty based on the experiences I have had to contribute to Psychiatry, Psychology and Neuroscience, to ensure other people that you can survive, you can improve the quality of your life, your education, your relationships with people and make friends.  Life events don’t stop with a TBI, relationships falter, in my case there was most harrowing acrimonious divorce, a Church annulment, loss of pre-accident friends, family complications being an emigrant to England in the late 1980’s first and then to Zimbabwe I was catapulted home to my family in Ireland with all the complications for them to pick up the pieces.  The inability to sustain friendships especially with all those who supported you in the early days of the post accident.  However my training as a typist, a skill set, proved essential.  I had brought my computer to Zimbabwe so I have a whole history of documentation both in hard-copy and on file.  The computer is the adaptive technology that is my memory, my brain and now my source of creativity.

Health history is my framework because as I have so often written illness can render you so helpless that you are the sum total of your own ill-health.  Chronic fatigue or which I consider more aptly described as mental burn-out,, problems with immune system, and as this history details steals so much time from your life.  Organisation was not a problem pre TBI, in fact as a secretary, and working in investment banking for an American company in the City, I was lucky to retain core skills of filing which enables me to outline this health history with the addendum that documentation exists to back this up.

I am not quite sure how this will appear on WordPress.  I am learning and am limited to minimalism because short term memory is affected.  My broad plan is to create a form of index.  Coincidences all seem to lead to Trinity College Dublin.  A gift so precious that although I failed at the final fence to get my final exam for the Business Economic Social Studies degree, I had completed the course, the essays, the projects and endeavours to have a final assessment instead of exams were superseded by ill-health and confusion about what exactly was required ie two essays or five.  I made a submission on the date required but it remains in limbo.  It is my intention to publish some 12 years later what I submitted to Trinity College Dublin BESS department.  There is much interaction between different faculties related to BESS, the Disabilities Department in Trinity, the Counselling Services and most importantly from me in the files of Trinity and in my own files to substantiate how the confusion resulted in the submission I will include.  The health history up to 2003 was provided to all the relevant departments as part of the application for alternative assessment.

Trinity College Trinity Horizon Programme explanation grounding.  UCD women studies….  Trinity College BESS.  Re-construct.  Reading, writing, Vincent Browne.  Books as a source of understanding. Email.  Citizen Journalism Twitter

1992 to 2017 – Health history:
Michelle Clarke Dublin 4.

May 1992

  • Ireland (Psychiatrist) – first serious unipolar incident of depression – ECT necessary but alternative was that I remained at home and psychiatrist Jim Maguire visited me while I stayed at my mother’s home.  This lasted nearly 6 months.  I then moved to Zimbabwe to join my husband.

1993

  • Neurosurgeon Zimbabwe (Hospital – fell off horse while jumping).  Skull Fracture. (X rays returned to Ear Nose Throat specialist Mater Hospital, Dublin)
  • Ear Nose and Throat Specialist Zimbabwe.  Deafness right ear established and loss of smell.

1994

  • Ear Nose and Throat Specialist – Mater Private Hospital (Verific. Zim)
  • Specific hearing examination
  • General Physician (5 weeks Lourdes Hospital, Drogheda)
  • Neuro-Psychologist (Only person practicing.  Mainly court work)
  • National Rehabilitation Board, Clane – accepted
  • Speech Therapy re. (Aphasia, concentration)
  • Physiotherapy – To walk forward, I might walk backward, falling, ataxia
  • Irish neurosurgeon, Mr Staunton.  No interest or belief in neuro-psychologist who had been recommended by my psychiatrist.
  • Heart Physician (drugs impact)
  • My husband wanted me to return to Zim.  Likewise I wanted to go.  Neuro Psychologist,  preference was that I attend rehab Ireland as marriage unlikely to withstand…(refer Report).
  • Trinity College Dublin – Speech Therapist St. Giles Harare
  • Physiotherapy – Harare
  • Monitoring of drugs by GP.  I had to return to Ireland every few months for prescribed medications and to meet with psychiatrist.

1995

  • Psychiatric admission Harare (Marriage had broken down).  Drug issue.  2nd time almost told I nearly died.  They were unaware of  ‘cocktail’ implications.  Psychotic in retrospect.  Anorexia re-activated and significant loss of weight.
  • My husband was unable to cope with my accident and the complications.  The outcome was he placed me in psychiatric hospital in Harare and left me there until my brother came to collect me – of which I have no recollection.

1996

  • Psychologist – Dr. Sean Collins (Psychotherapy) – Penebaker process used,under his strict supervision. This was most severe breakdown. Sean hoped this would work, he was determined having seen me ‘try to cope’ that I didn’t need another depression
  • Psychiatrist Dr. Jim Maguire said (no to group counseling or sports activity on Trinity Horizon).  Jim believed that as my depressions are so severe, there is no point during the time I am well to invoke anything that would cause pain.  I hold Jim Maguire in very high regard.

1997 Accepted BESS Trinity College Dublin https://www.tcd.ie/bess/

1998-99

  • Sick 9 months – 5 in Navan, Co Meath Psychiatric Hospital (no memories) apart from what was written in diaries. 15 rounds of ECT. Change medications to Lithium cocktail.  MAOI’s stopped.
  • Heart Physician Dr. McGarry at Navan Hospital
  • Psychologist, Navan Hospital.  I was over 5 months in night clothes only.  It was a public hospital.  There were six in the ward.  A woman in the bed opposite became very disturbed.  I sat with her and talked to her for hours explaining Why not?  How hard it is for the children? I tried to dissuade her.  Poor Eleanor wasn’t persuaded….she hugged me and I stupidly thought I changed her mind….but no.  Her children were professional, one an actuary.  She told me to pursue education – she gave me a poem specially written for the Student.
  • Before I left hospital I met with the psychologist there to prepare me for coming out.
  • Speech Therapy department Trinity College Dublin.  Probable that the academic standard and exposure to language prior to age 10 built up a sufficient stock of words, which I was able to draw on.  Probable as my parents read; father read all newspapers and had a keen interest in politics and my cousin Sir James Comyn a barrister, came home from London every weekend and there was intellectual conversation for a child that was not exposed to children.
  • Psychologist at Counselling services Trinity College Dublin.  I have attended Tenia since 1999 when I returned to College.  This was cognitive behavioral therapy. Tenia was exceptional in her commitment.
  • GP in Castleknock re. drug prescriptions/blood tests
  • GP Ballsbridge re. drug prescriptions/blood tests.  Lithium must be monitored.

2002

  • Eye Specialist – Professor Lorraine Cassidy (Trinity). Report provided to Trinity.  Copy on file.
  • Suicidal Depression – possibly reactive.  Trinity notified.

2003

  • More brain damage determined from the head injury in 1992 meaning all 5 senses are affected by damage; 6 hours of neuro-psychological assessment as the Disabilities department Trinity College Dublin claimed the other reports were of no importance.  Likewise when I presented with this in May 2003 Disabilities officer, Declan Treanor, paid scant attention to it,unlike the advice of the psychiatrist who suggested Martina McEnroe-O’Connor (neuro-psychologist) in 1993 when she was the only person with her qualifications and attended high court actions etc and of course Tenia Kallionitz, Cognitive Behaviour therapist who worked for Trinity College Dublin counselling Service.
  • I was man handled by four gardai at the Peace March at the Dail.  They would not listen to the screams in pain (mobility, muscles weak, stiff) due to the neurological/medical complications that retards my movement to very slow calculated pace and severe pain.  Unexpectantly Gardai charged at protesters. 4 Gardai grabbed me and moved me some distance before dropping me.  My head banged off the pavement. I was removed by ambulance to St James’ Hospital Accident and Emergency and later released.
  • Health deteriorated rapidly.  Unable to leave home and attend doctor.  This would have been the only time I did not attend Trinity this year.
  • It transpired I had developed a thyroid deficiency and was in need of eltroxin.  My metabolism had been affected.  This happens with Lithium and is further life medication.
  • The medical report from St. James remains there.  The system is so incomplete that you can get neither the hospital nor doctor to request same.  They mentioned I may have Parkinson’s also but of course that like other illnesses is always a possibility with mental illness.  Also encounter anorexia periods i.e. side effect of antidepressants.
  • Precipitating events or maybe it was just effects of TBI difficulties re-activated agoraphobia.  People tend not to be aware that each precipitating event with depression throws up the phobias to be dealt with again.  Agoraphobia created major problems in my teens.
  • Teeth: considerable work done by Edward Cotter dentist – Clyde Court, Dublin 4. Medications cause gum problems.

This was what was submitted based on request from Trinity College Dublin as follows: 

This is Michelle Clarke’s Health History
Submitted to: 

Dr. Margret Fine Davies – Centre for Women Studies
To Disabilities Department Trinity
To Psychology Department Trinity
To Tutor Brian Lucey
To Professor Holton
To Professor Laver  (The sole reason these people received this report related to the  conference they held regarding my application for accommodation of my needs re. the final section of my degree).

16th November 2003 submission date, I delivered to the BESS office what could have potentially provided me with a BESS Degree.  In the absence of acknowledgment, I intend to publish same on WordPress now and only now after a further 11 years of ill-health.  It may be an advantage to someone else.  I have been asked by a variety of people to write up on my experiences, people who often are seeking advice concerning mental health, traumatic brain injury, the power of education and the importance of third level education especially if you have mental health or neurological difficulties as a stepping stone to acceptance.

  • 23/11/03 – Met Kevin Walsh who took a pro-active approach – initial focus diet, exercise and confidence building.

2004

  • Circa February I met with Dr. Moroney and two weeks later underwent an MRI scan.  Dr. Moroney gave a thorough examination.  Nothing organic was found.  The concern was the Parkinsons as suggested at St. James’ Hospital.
  • Still feeling unwell and visited General Practitioner.  He sent me for a lower back xray at Baggot Street.  His locum, Dr. Hurley explained the damage to the lower three vertebrae.  The cushioning/sponge was no longer there.  She listened to both what Kevin and I had to say and she felt it advisable to attend a Rheumatologist.  At this time, there was considerable body weakness and shortness of breath.
  • Next appointment was at the Mater Private.  I was very distressed at this stage and caged in.  Mrs. Fenlon’s daughter (Dentist who I attended when I was younger) was the radiologist.  The xray revealed a clouding around lower back.
  • Then I went to Cardiology.  This proved okay.
  • Still unwell.  Mum intervened via Kevin’s suggestion.  I went to Bons Secour for an onslaught of tests (in excess of a week).  Conor Burke’s letter said that basically all was okay – nothing organic was found.  The Bone Density recommendation of change of lifestyle.
  • The neurologist questioned the weakness and reiterated the point.
  • Mr. Moorehouse, Psychiatrist, stated clearly that the body weakness was in line with the use of my mental energy and in line with Dr. Cassidy’s report about my right eye.  
  • Dr. Griffin, Endocrinologist found a problem with my thyroid levels but this was something that would take time.  As per Jim Maguire, she stated the Lithium/thyroid balance and monitoring.
  • The appointment with Dr. Sant did not happen while in hospital.  I was to contact her for a private appointment (i.e. Rheumatologist).  
  • Mr. Corbett, Psychiatrist, came twice to visit me.  He had identified the issue of Anxiety and took an extensive mental health position.  He knew my psychiatrist, Jim Maguire.  I found hospital extremely distressing – my last visit was 5 months in psychiatric.
  • I provided Conor Burke with my personal outline of my health, together with the third assessment of Dr. Martina McEnroe O’Connor, Neuro-psychologist and two articles I had written given this is all I appear to be able to do.
  • Phobias extremely severe.  Afraid to contact people, use, phone, collect prescriptions etc.
  • With little numeracy, high fatigue, poor nutrition, and ‘drop dead exhaustions’, mobility problems, I had to leave Trinity College Dublin just before my final summer exams in summer 2003.  The Disabilities team and the psychology dept in Trinity were acting with me to try an establish alternative assessment.  Exhaustion became very severe.  Intend to contact Provost Mr. Hegarty again when I get strong.
  • Kevin T. Walsh met me (Nov. 2003).  Kevin’s knowledge, understanding and compassion has had an outstanding contribution.  It is a person centred approach.
  • Several weeks ago (Oct I had kidney infection yet again, pain and headaches so bad  I had to go to A&E in St Vincents. Phobic fear (related to Agoraphobia) resulted in me panicking and walking out of hospital.  They phoned with prescription details etc.  A lot of weakness lately and tiredness.

2005

  • No improvement. Exhaustions governed mobility. Considerable physical weakness but mentally strong.

2006

  • Kevin had to go away for a 6 months on business.  Mum persuaded me to attend Baggot Street Community Hospital.  Introduced to Social Worker, Susan Hartnet.  Complete mess.  They wanted me to attend day clinic.  They did not understand that I had only 3-4 hours a day due to the Chronic Fatigue and I was able to control same.  Dr Kingsley said he had never heard of neuro-psychiatric and substantially reduced my medications causing panic. This is a whole complete story, (Files exist).  The outcome was Kevin came back, sorted things out and I decided to attend Dr. John Cooney at Charlemont Clinic.  Formal complaint made to the Medical Council regarding Fitness to Practice and the conditions of Baggot Street Community Hospital and its medical team.

2007

  • Participated on the Mental Health Advisory committee of the Work-Life Balance project (Dr. Margret Fine-Davis. Senior Research Fellow. Sponsored (Trinity College Dublin/Aware/Age Action/IBEC/ICTU/FAS)
  • Dr. Harte, Haddington Road – Urinary tract infection and feeling unwell. Exhaustion, mobility problems, infections constant.

2008

  • 01/11/08: St. Vincents University Hospital (Accident and Emergency). Urinary tract infection.  Flank pain.  Prescription given
  • Eyes and improved glasses
  • Back passage bleed for several months.  Admitted to St. Michael’s Private hospital, Dun Laoghaire 3rd June 2008 under Joseph P. Duignan.  Problems with diet, lot of projectile vomiting around that time.  Had private appointment first with Mr. Duignan

2009

  • Dr. Martin Callinan and his wife Geraldine recognised I was unwell and recommended I attend Dr. John Barragry, Consultant Endocrinologist.  Further appt set up for 21st January:  Ultrasound of abdomen, pelvis and chest xray.  Dexa scan @ MRI department.  ECG at cardiology department.  Health continued to deteriorate.  Shakes, freezing cold, psychosis, urinary tract infection. Admitted A&E Tallaght Hospital
  • Breast Check St. Vincents (OK)
  • 12/08/09: Dr Martin Callinan gave me the letter from Dr Barragry to Dr. John Cooney and Dr. Cahill.  Presumably team under consultant Mr. R Murphy, Dr Kevin Walsh issued their findings which concern the lithium poisoning.  Creatines too high.  https://www.medicinenet.com/creatinine_blood_test/article.htm

Synopsis

  • Long history of Bipolar Affective Disorder on lithium therapy/traumatic brain injury 1993-frontal lobe damage/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
  • Admitted to hospital: 16/01/09:  History of anorexia, nausea, dehydration and tremor and was confused and inarticulate and dehydrated.  Investigation confirmed Lithium toxicity.  Associated with mild increase in serum creatine and a leucocytosis.  CT and MRI showed no acute lesion. Thyroid was normal.  Vitamin B12 levels were low.  Temporary cessation of Lithium occurred.  Seen by Liaison psychiatrist.  Lithium re-started but with a lower dose and Olanzapine was added.
  • Broca https://www.hopkinsmedicine.org › … › For the Media › Current News Releases
  • Psychosis Lithium Poison complicated this period

2010

Tilda (Study re Ageing) https://www.tilda.ie/carried out at Trinity College Dublin (Laura Dunne – 8962509)

2011

  • Continual period for about 5 months bleed.  Maura Collins advised me to get it checked out.  Appointment to see Dr. Mona Joyce
  • Procedure 17/06/11.  No periods since.  She would not carry out hysterectomy in spite of the fact I asked.  Attended Mount Carmel with Kevin.

2012

Tilda interview by Kathleen Clarke. 

For first time in years health improving apart from odd flu, a few aches but definitely beginning to push out the boundaries and do a few extra things daily.

2013

Pain right side of chest, more an ache
Problem with swallow and choking.  Possibly related to TBI

2014

  • Endoscopy  slight inflammation and sent for barium function September 2014; still awaiting results.
  • Attend Dr Cooney, Psychiatrist, Northumberland Road Clinic, Dublin 6 every three months, since 2006, following an appalling experience of public health mental health at The Royal City of Dublin Bank of Ireland.  Only for competent staff at Boots Pharmacy, life with problems is so complicated.  Medications now generic so no longer recognise names except Lithium Benzos and others.

    2015

    Dr Barragry:  Lithium poisoning in 2010.  My kidney working at about 75% function. Cholesterol high at 7.5.  Need to consider Statins or improve diet and exercise.  Also may have to reduce Lithium medications. This makes me so fearful I don’t think I can make it through yet again another depression.

    Dr Garrett Cullen, SVUH.  Medications and follow up appointment re choking and oesphagus.  It is Dismotility.  2nd Appt: Young consultant reviewed Endoscopy and gave me antibiotics.  She identified in Endoscopy report (not identified before) www.healthline.com/health/helicobacter-pylori

Updated 12th February 2015 by Michelle Clarke

Dentistry ‘Orange is the new Black’

2015 Oral health year for me.  Medical conditions can be so time consuming and teeth as they identify in the US ‘Orange is the new Black’ are always a challenge when you look at taking psychiatric drugs, or especially people engaged in illegal drug addictions or even taking too many antibiotics.  Personally I was embarrassed to speak and definitely to laugh or smile and tended to cover my mouth.  Smiles and Dr Dan have been excellent: Cleanings, teeth removal, braces an operation to place a piece of gum from one area to the next. He confirmed that it is the Dental Services that fails to provide for our most vulnerable people and elderly due to lack of State funds.  Smiles Waterloo Road.  https://www.smiles.ie/clinic/dentist-in-dublin-4/

    • Dr Dan Gruenfeld

      Dr Dan Gruenfeld graduated from the University of Tuebingen in Germany in 2006. Dan spent two and a half years in the south of Germany in a general practice. In 2009 Dan moved to Ireland and started working with the Smiles Dental Team in 2010. Dan is committed to continuing his professional development and has a particular interest in aesthetic dentistry, the replacement of missing teeth with dental implants and various surgical procedures. Dan is also member of the “German Society for Dental Implantology” (DGZI) and the “Irish Association of Aesthetic Dentistry”.

Article Irish Times 11th February 2016 letters page:  Summary:

Gerry Kaar, BDS, Clonmel Co. Tipperary.  Resources and Dental Health.  He writes about a diminishing supply of patients in relation to dental health.  He goes on to say that dental health affects patients in many ways.  The link between gum disease and heart problems and diabetes are just two of the most serious.  (The Tilda Research programme in Trinity College are research people and their teeth as part of the Study.  They recommended that make my teeth a priority.  He highlights patients who seek dental certificates for fitness for medical operations.  The abolition of the PRSI scheme in dentistry and the virtual annihilation of the dental medical card scheme, this is a health dimension train rolling down the tracks fast particularly in an ageing economy.  He also stressed the importance of dental hygiene for children.

May 2017

BreastCheck – Merrion Row letter to have a mammogram.  The outcome was cancer, surgery by Mr Gerraghty, next phase is Oncology with Professor John Crown and Radiology with Professor Armstrong.  I will conclude this section and in future I will write under the heading of BreastCheck – Oncology and Radiology on  http://canisgallicus.com

CONCLUSION

To conclude I will relate to quotations to sum up the appreciation I have for KT who I met at the bus stop on Morehampton Road, Dublin 4, in November 2003. Advocacy, support, compassion, realities, can never be underestimated these are the powerful resource that enables a person who has sustained life changing events and significant health disabilities in rapid succession to continue to move forward and gain strength even though the tortoise is moving faster and smarter than you. To my Jack Russell, for him it made me push out the boundaries.

C.S. Lewis

‘There is truth to what the book of Ecclesiastics says,
“better two than one by himself [or herself]” (Eccl 4:9)

and to what Charles Williams, C.S. Lewis’ friend, warns us:

“No mind is so good that it does not need another mind to counter and equal it, and to save it from conceit and bigotry and folly”


Above is my health history:  I include here some background information about being a student with disabilities in Trinity College Dublin.

Medical Ethics:

Tedx talks: A most impressive Physician who I will listen to over and over again.

Addendum:

Outline of paradox.  Impact of Traumatic Brain Injury to Bipolar/Anxiety/medications and finally Chronic Fatigue … what happened?  I did not get my Degree in BESS.  I fell at the last fence again.

Another posting details how ill-health through deterioration possibly based on exhaustion resulted in me not gaining my degree.  Negotiations wavered.  It was intended that there would be alternative assessment instead of final examinations in BESS.  I was asked to attend my neuro-psychologist and produce a report to the Disabilities Department in Trinity College Dublin.  By chance I located this.

2nd Meeting with Neuro-Psychologist
Dr. Martina McEnroe O’Connor
Tuesday 20th February 2002

Just my on personal comments about ‘me’

To read/write I use intense concentration on the function and provided I can identify with the material, I will recall it at another time, on receipt of some prompt. I cannot recall chunks of information.

Inability to work for extended periods of time i.e. several hours with breaks no longer possible. One hour lecture – I can feel exhausted after it.

Annotate for an essay: No use – I can’t recall. I need to highlight and configure the essay on the screen.

Particularly when tired: I hear and write the word but am aware that as I write, it is the wrong word that I am writing. To correct this initially at College I used to hold a tippex pen in one hand and wiped out the word and replaced it. Now that I have less stamina I tend to skip words and not notice as much that I am writing the wrong word. Does this relate to the Aphasia that you recommended I attend the speech therapist to deal with. I had a whole set of words that I used to replace what the word should have been and the exact word exchange error tended to occur each time…When I become very tired this recurs.

Amnesic blocks / severe depressions: Loss of foundations. Process of building back by asking people obvious questions each time I begin to recover. I write down interesting points from the radio and TV and add to a Snippets file that can be referred to. One point I have just managed to grasp is that it was this time last year that I register moving to the flat and a period of high’s/lows. I recall Palestine and the Peace March because I became obsessively involved with the issue – I cannot recall the data but I can recall the performance of sending emails to almost 600 per night. It is muddled and if tired I become confused as to which year all the trauma happened.

Timeless is a huge issue. I cannot register season, month, time of day, – it is improved as several years ago I could get up and go to the bus stop in the middle of the night now I get up and work for a while.

‘Stop going abroad without a passport’ – my words to try and halt me from seeking the obscure in the essay title rather than deal with the issue. Mentally I cannot relate to writing essays previously in Trinity or doing exams. If I think I am at Social Theory, it is really difficult to think of my next lecture say Themes of Social Enquiry. This process feels like I am placing too much in and the outcome is confusion. If I get muddled with the timetable, I will constantly make the same mistake each time and miss the lecture. Say a 2 O’Clock lecture. I will look at timetable and see it as three and am quite likely to do the same the next week. I have introduced colours and other methods but realistically it relates to the level of exhaustion. I read extensively to find solutions and possible remedies.

Ideas are constantly emanating from my head…..I can see forward in perspective (not regarding me but ideas) but I cannot remember in a structured way. I look forward to a lecture that will stimulate thinking and ideas and the formulation of concepts. (This is by way of being a loner possibly).

I interact with politicians who never respond putting forward the concepts/ideas related to the lectures I have attended. Also re. Mental Health matters, and areas I have direct experience of, I write about. I email Dr. Margret Fine-Davis and Dr. Mary McCarthy who carried out research related to women and depression and re-entry to work/study. This was the Trinity Horizon Programme 1996/97 and I have copied them with all my correspondence in case there is a follow on in research. They are presently researching flexibility in the workplace (people with mental illness are one of the groups reviewed).

Carl Jung said that the patient should be included in the diagnosis, including their explanation of their hallucinations and dreams. I wholly concur with this. I believe that the education system and medical system ought to be expanded to take account of the person who experiences the disability/illness. At the IPRT (Irish Penal Reform Trust) on mental health – I spoke from the audience in reply to Dr. Mary Robinson and her speech. I mentioned that the last time I met her was in Zimbabwe and that I was speaking as a person with both intellectual and mental disability. I stressed the importance of a structured routine, the need for programmes similar to the Trinity Horizon programme and the facilities provided by Trinity and other universities for people with mental and intellectual disabilities.

I conclude with the above reference by Carl Jung. This is a ‘Take Responsibility’ approach. I think I also mentioned that psychiatric patients can relate well with those with physical disability, from my experience. It was Cathy – who hopefully will qualify as a social worker this year who identified what was really affecting me. She noticed that I constantly referred to the way I was and was highly critical of the ‘new’ situation. She recognized this because she was born with her disability, she did not have a comparison factor, she worked on the basis of accomplishments. I was a perfectionist as a secretary, housekeeper, etc. etc. traits consistent with depressives. They tend to find work with an ‘immediate gratification outcome’. Again, this ties into low self esteem. Professor McKeon makes reference to their dedication as workers when he gives his annual lecture at St. Patrick’s Hospital. Two psychiatrists from Rampton hospital then spoke and they too were applying a structured approach and availing of a multi-disciplinary approach. Their study relates to those categorized as pathological.

I cannot multi-task any longer. I cannot prepare a meal or coffee …. Confusion re. timing, whether I ought to be talking —– muddled. This is really complicated by anxiety. The anxiety no longer requires 10 x 10 mgs of Librium but I do take three. Jim (Psychiatrist) is anxious for me to start cutting back.

I can only operate around ‘Truth’. Fabrication confuses me and causes me to back away from the people. My experience with the people with physical disabilities is that they too ‘speak the truth’. This may be due to comparison with pre-accident, when I too would not necessarily tell the truth. This relates to the fact that at that time if I was telling a lie, I could remember that I had and not get caught out and life sometimes necessitated particularly in work situations. This was more an Irish experience that when working in London.

If I get too tired – direct affect on balance. I return home as a ‘drunk’. The dark and tiredness have a negative effect. Alternatives get mixed also (have to really think whether to use word negative or positive).

If stamina is low – another issue is the speed people walk at and the fear that if I am in their way, I will get pushed over. I have developed a way of avoiding crowds, queues etc. – in the fear scenario – avoidance techniques. Walking up stairs is very difficult – there is acute tension in my body. Phobias also apply. It has taken years for me to use the phone and as I become depressed, it and not wanting to eat/drink (drugs impact) are the precursors to withdrawal.

Aim to establish: (Trinity – 3rd year BESS – Sociology and Politics)

Balance Sheet transaction required.
In exchange for my deficits that preclude scientific research SPSS and numerical ability, that I provide ‘The Profane Life Experience that relates to Bipolar mental illness, Acute Anxiety and neurological damage sustained from the head injury I sustained in a riding accident in 1993. To this now must be added the damage (only recently recognized by Professor Lorraine Cassidy – report with Declan Treanor) to my right eye damage/blindness and neural damage. I have submitted 10 page account already as an indication of my life experience since that date.

Can Trinity accommodate my Special Needs?

Trinity have introduced two subjects Third Year:
Mental Health (Sociological perspective) and Disability. I am willing to be directed in any way they consider that I can contribute to an improvement in this area of health and disability. There are already three research reports that can be made available to them within Trinity.

Examinations:

These are of no benefit to me. In the past, I will have scraped a pass or a little more. If I have to sit exams this year (3rd) it is probable I will be at a disadvantage based on the foregoing. I am aware that structured work is an unlikely prospect for me making the education I have received inconsistent with the normal employment expectations. However, initiative and innovation always exist.

I worked for 15 years, I worked three jobs at one time (my former husband and I set up a construction company in the 1980s and I dealt with funding, admin – it ended up in liquidation and emigration) but at the same time I was in full time work for a Chief Executive of an oil company and responsible for currency transactions, treasury management, secretarial duties and entertainment. In London, I worked in Corporate Finance with Pru-Bache and studied law at night. I have already started what will be my life’s aim i.e. writing and writing with lassitude. I have my folder of Essay’s that were high grades (one at 75). I use these if an issue becomes apparent and I want to write about it.

My cousin, Mary East, a Professor of Education at the University of Toronto, suggested based on what she had received from me that I undertake an Autobiographical Thesis. There is a more holistic approach to education in Canada and she encourages me to suggest this to those concerned in Trinity. Mary has published several books.

Professor McKeon refers to depression – ‘You know not the day or hour that it descends’.

I can vouch for this.

All I know is that there are ‘dips’ and they are hell and the easiest way is ‘out’. I have just come out of one of these acute dips and hope that maybe just maybe there will be a longer period of being ‘on level’. My body is extremely tired. I can never envisage going on a holiday again or anything really. Life is the day and I was not this kind of person. I have adapted but challenge an educational and health system to a broader scope. The age of managerialism needs to be willing to adapt to life-long learning and an acceptance of change to mean opportunity for oneself and others.

As daughter of two doctors, exposed to lawyers, I am determined that if life says I am ‘to be the patient, the service user, ‘whatever label’, I will remove the veil of secrecy that complies with a system of inequality and does not empower the person as distinct from diminish them. I can only believe that I have been dealt a hand that says ‘Change attitude to mental illness, and suicide’. My Psychiatrist and Psychologist(s), the Trinity Horizon, Trinity re-constructed me.

Michelle Clarke.
19th February 2002.

Copy:

Martina O’Connor – Neuro Psychologist
Jim Maguire – Psychiatrist
Prof. Holton – Sociology Department, Trinity College Dublin
Tenia – Psychologist, Trinity College Dublin
Ray Fuller – Tutor (formerly Brian Lucey), Trinity College Dublin
Dr. Margret Fine Davies – Trinity Horizon Programme, Trinity College Dublin, Centre for Women Studies)
Declan Treanor, Trinity College Dublin, Disabilities department

2017 I was called for Breast Check.  I was diagnosed with breast cancer and treatment ensued.  I wrote a book just in case some of my life experiences with head injury; manic depression; social and other anxiety disorders could be of benefit to others.

So far it is June 2021 and I am a survivor

Published on Amazon https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639610/

Fortune Favours the Brave by Michelle Marcella Clarke



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Quotations: selection 2015. Gathering quotes can be inspirational but also if depressed can become the stars that enable you to see beyond darkness.

John O’Donohue – Anam Cara
‘One of the most powerful and prophetic analysts was Karl Marx.
He showed how work can alienate a person from their nature and potential.
Certain work can dull and darken human presence…
the linear mind can miss its gift…
Perception is crucial to understanding.

Shakespeare – Julius Caesar
‘The fault dear Brutus is not with our stars, but with ourselves….’

Bertrand Russell
‘Most Christians would rather die than think – in fact they do’

Mother Teresa
‘Lonely and being unwanted is the greatest poverty’

St. Augustine
‘O Lord make me chaste….but just not yet’

Palestinian Elias Chacour
‘The Jews deserve a homeland, not because they are Jews, but because they are human’

George Bernard Shaw
‘Poverty does not produce unhappiness; it produces degradation’

Francis Bacon
‘Knowledge itself is power’

G.K. Chesterton
‘Education is simply the soul of  a society as it passes from one generation to another’.

Corrinthians
‘Love always excuses’

Psalm XXXIII: 6
‘Those who turn their eyes towards him shall be enlightened’

Confucius (c.551-478 BC)  Chinese Philosopher.  Betrayal.
‘To know what is right and not to do it is the worst cowardice’

Franz Kafka (1883-1924)  Austrian Writer. 
‘Youth is happy because it has the ability to see beauty.
Anyone who keeps the ability to see beauty never grows old’.

Eli Ginzberg US Health Policy Expert and Writer. 
‘Enlarge the opportunity and the person will expand to fill it’

Edward Abbey, Contemporary US Writer. 
‘Be like a tree in pursuit of your cause:
Stand firm, grip hard, thrust upward, bend to the winds of heaven, and learn tranquillity.

Ralph Waldo Emerson
‘Adopt the pace of nature; her secret is patience’

Nancy Thayer
‘It’s never too late, in fiction or in life, TO REVISE’

Economist:  Michael Harrington
‘If there is a technological advance without a social advance,
there is, almost automatically, an increase in human misery’

Groucho Marx:
“Look at me:  I worked my way up from nothing to a state of extreme poverty”

Archbishop Helder Camara – Brazil
“Poverty makes people sub-human
Excess of wealth makes people inhuman”

Proverbs 22-16
‘generosity is its own reward
and that bribery and exploitation are their own ruin’

You cannot serve both God and money

Malcolm X
‘If Christianity had asserted itself in Germany, six million Jews would have lived’

Mother Teresa
Asked how did she feed the children  –  She replied:
‘One at a time’

William James (Psychiatrist Harvard)
‘The greatest discovery in our generation is that human beings
by changing their inner attitudes of their minds can change all outer aspects of their lives’

Mark Twain
‘Kindness is the language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see’.

Old Desert Fathers:
“Fuge, tace, et quiesce
(Live in solitude, silence and inner peace)

Henry David Thoreau
“Why should we be in such desperate haste to succeed and in such desperate enterprises?
If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer.  Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured or far away”.

Eduardo Frei (President of Chile 1964)
‘If we always look outside ourselves for blame, that is in itself a form of dependence.
We must look for our own blame to find our own personality.

TS Eliot
‘Where is the life we have lost living?
Where is the wisdom we have lost in knowledge?
Where is the knowledge we have lost in information?

Alice Walker
‘Human compassion is equal to human cruelty and it is up to each of us tip the balance’

Albert Einstein
‘Unthinking respect for authority is the greatest enemy of the truth’

Camus
‘The evil that is in the world almost always come of ignorance, and
good intentions may do as much harm as malevolence

Eisenhower
‘Never waste time thinking about people you don’t like’

Gabriel Marcel
‘Being and having in our society teaches us how to take possession of things,
when it should rather initiate us in the art of letting go.
For there is neither freedom nor real life without an apprenticeship in letting go.

Harry Stack Sullivan Psychologist
‘There is a persistent funny form of suspicion in most of us that we can solve our own problems and be the masters of our own ships of life, but the fact of the matter is that by ourselves we can only be consumed by our problems and suffer the shipwreck.

Aldous Huxley
‘Addiction is an increasing desire for an act that gives less and less satisfaction

Yiddish saying
‘To a worm in horseradish, the whole world is horseradish’

The Talmud
‘The highest kind of wisdom is kindness’

Kabir Mystical poet India
‘I laughed when they told me that a fish in water can be thirsty’

Krishnamurti
‘The day you teach the child the name of a bird, the child stops seeing the bird’

George Eliot
‘What loneliness is more lonely than mistrust

Doris Lessing
‘that is what learning is.
You suddenly understand something you have understood all your life but in a new way’

CS Lewis
‘No mind is so good that it does not need another mind to counter and equal it,
and to save it from conceit and bigotry and folly’

Bureaucracy (imagine this was 1950’s and it is now Pope Francis scolds us)
‘I live in the Managerial Age, in a world of administration.
The greatest evil is not done in those sordid ‘dens of crime’ that Dickens loved to paint…
It is conceived and ordered… in clean, carpeted, warmed and well lighted offices,
by quiet men with white collars and cut fingernails and smooth-shaven cheeks
who do not need to raise their voice.
Hence, naturally enough, my symbol for Hell is something like the bureaucracy
of a police state or the offices of a thoroughly nasty business concern…’

‘(As Screwtape wrote). 
‘It does not matter how small the sins are provided that their cumulative effect is to edge the man from the Light and out into Nothing…Indeed the safest road to Hell is the gradual one…’
‘Experience is a brutal teacher….’

Sir William Osler, Regius Professor of Medicine, Oxford 1871
‘Our main business is not to see what lies dimly in the distance,
but to do what lies clearly at hand’

Henri Nouwen
What is Hope?
“Hope is that inner dynamic that compels us to explore and pursue the expectations built into the human condition.  Hope was born the day the first human beings discovered the first bridge and
decided not to jump off the bridge in despair, but to cross it”

Petra Kelly (1947-1992)
Feast and Famine
‘We cannot feast on global resources while the world’s poor struggle to survive on inhospitable lands.
It is as simple as that.
It is the rich who are making the world poorer.
Environment and Poverty are one crisis, not two.

Amos born 8 centuries before Christ

‘Let justice flow like water and integrity like an unfailing stream’

Happy New Year.

It is the Day 1 2015 and I have assembled my favourite quotes for the year.  My collection starts in 2001 and theme is constant

May it be a good year for all.

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